The last few weeks and days feel like they have takes an extremely long time to pass, which really has been messing with me in way in many ways. It really, really does not help when you are trying to keep sane and not to worry about all of this but I need to get so much paper work done in a very short amount of time. Everything from Application to Student Visa to Finding a place to stay and everything in between including how exactly I am going to get down there......
I am stressing out and honestly do not know what to do, I am anxious and REALLY want tomorrow to be August so I can get it all over with, I am excited to go down to the states and also nervous about moving so far away from home for almost a year.
I wish I had something I could everyday to occupy my mind so I can attempt to stay calm. But currently online gaming isn't really helping, and progress with my hobbies because either I don't have the tools I need, something has broke that I am clueless how to fix or of course the really obvious one.. something is outright missing.
Once I know I have got accepted and my visa has gone through it is going to be a huge relief, since I won't be starting to the later half of September.
But until then.......
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Life's Little Curve Ball
What do you do when you think you have got everything figured and planned out then out of no where this force comes....
Seriously, I thought I had everything ready to go per say and just had to wait for it all to come together but well, things come and changes are bound to happen. Before I continue with this, it is not going to effect my plans for my education and what I want to go into as a career. It is, however on the complete other side, going to effect my plans when I get back and possibly any social plans from now till then.
It does not really help that I am on the fence with these decisions whether I should act or just let them pass by. I 'could' make a move and find out I was correct all along or put myself into a huge hole. I 'could' let them pass by and wait, patently for the next thing that catches my interest to come along.
One thing that would make this choice a lot easier would be if I would have a steady income, but currently I cannot say I do.
I feel like that passing it would by would be like missing a diamond in the rocks however at the same time if it is too going to be true it is. is it?
I shall continue this tomorrow when I have had more time to thing about this.
17/7/2012
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So today I went to get more information and well, it pretty well answered and put everything on halt for the time being. For those wondering I was found a lovely sailboat on the East Coast of the US. A beautiful Tahiti Ketch, just because it was so far away the shipping would equate to over 100% of the cost of the boat which means well, it isn't worth it at all. I would be better off waiting to get one on the west coast.
There is however another thing, which I am still on the fence with but that I would prefer not to go into detail just yet.
Seriously, I thought I had everything ready to go per say and just had to wait for it all to come together but well, things come and changes are bound to happen. Before I continue with this, it is not going to effect my plans for my education and what I want to go into as a career. It is, however on the complete other side, going to effect my plans when I get back and possibly any social plans from now till then.
It does not really help that I am on the fence with these decisions whether I should act or just let them pass by. I 'could' make a move and find out I was correct all along or put myself into a huge hole. I 'could' let them pass by and wait, patently for the next thing that catches my interest to come along.
One thing that would make this choice a lot easier would be if I would have a steady income, but currently I cannot say I do.
I feel like that passing it would by would be like missing a diamond in the rocks however at the same time if it is too going to be true it is. is it?
I shall continue this tomorrow when I have had more time to thing about this.
17/7/2012
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So today I went to get more information and well, it pretty well answered and put everything on halt for the time being. For those wondering I was found a lovely sailboat on the East Coast of the US. A beautiful Tahiti Ketch, just because it was so far away the shipping would equate to over 100% of the cost of the boat which means well, it isn't worth it at all. I would be better off waiting to get one on the west coast.
There is however another thing, which I am still on the fence with but that I would prefer not to go into detail just yet.
Friday, July 13, 2012
Delayed Yet Again....
As much as I tried to make a lot of progress last month on the application process for Wyotech I was unable to. Only recently I have been able to make some progress and only just found out I need to send an official document that I do not have access to (the newest version) until the beginning of August. Lovely.... So now I have to wait 18 more days before I can finally start making progress on the application and visa with Wyotech. As for the other paperwork I managed to get most of one forum done but I am unable to complete it until I get a document number from Wyotech.
Sure everything is coming together, slowly but surely, however there are things I have been able to get done in Canada due to other factors. Mainly, I need to get my Novice drivers license to so I will be able to drive down in the states. I also need to go to the local college I was attending for the last few years when I was trying to get into architecture because I have earned enough credits to graduate with a diploma in Arts and Social Science.
I also joined the American Bladesmithing Society in June to learn from journeyman and master bladesmith as I try to make blades myself in Canada. It is hard to say I am progressing fast since I have limited access to the forges which limits what i can do. I also have yet to make my own set of tools so I don't have to rely on my local blacksmith club tools. I really would like to set up my own forge so I would have a lot of more time to practice forging blades. Another thing is slowing my down is I have yet to polish and temper (harden) one blade, finish the handle and put a butt cap/pommel on it.
Also in June I picked up several model cars and an airbrush so I would have something smaller to practice on before I head down to the states. I really wish I could have these done by now but my air brush house decided to come loose. Apparently when they made it, they did not put any adhesive on the end which screws onto the airbrush. So after using it for a little while it shot off, making a loud pop sound. I am considering of trying to use Teflon tape fix it, the stuff pumpers use to create water tight seals when two threaded attachments are joined together. But if that fails it would be a pain to get out.
I have also been planning ahead a lot from when I get back from Wyotech in the states, which does not hurt, but it is quite far ahead from where I am currently. For the most part it is basically which classic car I would like to find and restore when I get back to Canada, how I am going to manage my finances so I can get a sailboat either in December 2013 or January 2014. Nothing wrong with dreaming eh?
Lately I have been feeling like something is missing. It is like I have almost everything planned out but there is this void which I cannot fill but at the same time do not want to rush into something that I am going to regret, not to mention hurt me. It is almost in a way since what happened in 2011, I have put all my barriers back up so I won't get involved who is not compatible, someone self-centered, and something who does not care.
Yet in a way it probably is for the better, since once I am established (when I get back from Wyo) I should not have to worry as much since I will/possibly/maybe meet something that will understand me, respect me and love me.
But before any of this happens I've gotta take life one-step-at-a-time.
Sure everything is coming together, slowly but surely, however there are things I have been able to get done in Canada due to other factors. Mainly, I need to get my Novice drivers license to so I will be able to drive down in the states. I also need to go to the local college I was attending for the last few years when I was trying to get into architecture because I have earned enough credits to graduate with a diploma in Arts and Social Science.
I also joined the American Bladesmithing Society in June to learn from journeyman and master bladesmith as I try to make blades myself in Canada. It is hard to say I am progressing fast since I have limited access to the forges which limits what i can do. I also have yet to make my own set of tools so I don't have to rely on my local blacksmith club tools. I really would like to set up my own forge so I would have a lot of more time to practice forging blades. Another thing is slowing my down is I have yet to polish and temper (harden) one blade, finish the handle and put a butt cap/pommel on it.
Also in June I picked up several model cars and an airbrush so I would have something smaller to practice on before I head down to the states. I really wish I could have these done by now but my air brush house decided to come loose. Apparently when they made it, they did not put any adhesive on the end which screws onto the airbrush. So after using it for a little while it shot off, making a loud pop sound. I am considering of trying to use Teflon tape fix it, the stuff pumpers use to create water tight seals when two threaded attachments are joined together. But if that fails it would be a pain to get out.
I have also been planning ahead a lot from when I get back from Wyotech in the states, which does not hurt, but it is quite far ahead from where I am currently. For the most part it is basically which classic car I would like to find and restore when I get back to Canada, how I am going to manage my finances so I can get a sailboat either in December 2013 or January 2014. Nothing wrong with dreaming eh?
Lately I have been feeling like something is missing. It is like I have almost everything planned out but there is this void which I cannot fill but at the same time do not want to rush into something that I am going to regret, not to mention hurt me. It is almost in a way since what happened in 2011, I have put all my barriers back up so I won't get involved who is not compatible, someone self-centered, and something who does not care.
Yet in a way it probably is for the better, since once I am established (when I get back from Wyo) I should not have to worry as much since I will/possibly/maybe meet something that will understand me, respect me and love me.
But before any of this happens I've gotta take life one-step-at-a-time.
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