This year has been absolutely a mess for me. It began great with me celebrating it in South East Asia only to have that hit the fan in the summer (relationship wise). And it is going out like nothing mattered, that happiness only comes with pain and that people can be more sadistic than you expect. So what more do you want?
In some way I would like everything to end, why? Since it will bring judgment and karma upon everyone, so those who hurt me would get it back... worse. But seriously, that is unlikely to happen. We are more likely to go through a rough period and possibly the beginning of another war. Cynical? Yes I know I am, but hey when everyone out there isn't listening when millions of others are screaming fire (about the environmental problems)... isn't that worse? Not to mention all those consumed in buying stuff that they will not use. Just like as the world's collective economy is falling, it is like just digging the whole deeper.
I hope the changes we need to do are going to be done in the new year but that is asking for A LOT.
I am on the fence on a few things I want to do in the new year. One is possibly going to Iceland for a week or so and the other (not related) is to take up black smithing since I've been interested in that since I was young. For me what makes these decisions tough is the fact of the costs of them and whether or not it worth it or not considering what is going on in our world.
All I really hope for next year is for me to get into my program. Since i found out about this program in late 2008 I wanted to get, so this year is my chance to move forward quite a bit and get closer to my goal. But like I said before that is only possible if the world improves instead of getting worse.
The thing is... How does one hope for change when literally you feel there is nothing left to hope for? I feel like my heart has been ripped out this year, that i have been taken advantage of and abused and now I am suppose to pick up the pieces and move on? It is a so much harder than it sounds, and making it worse is the fact that i am a sensitive individual. I do not want to give my heart away again only to end up broken and plus I also do not want those who have hurt me to get of scot-free. Double edged, and yes i know.
So where do I stand and where does this leave me? I have options and room to move to be like this, I just have to treat carefully. Adding my virtues and morales makes it a little bit easier. Heh, in some way i want to charge someone and unleash hell just so I know how vicious I can be. But well, I have not done that yet and hope not to do that anytime soon to my friends, family and others close to me. Luckily that takes a lot for me to get pushed that far.
This is where i leave it, asking for the new year to be better and not worse. Hoping to meet someone new who will complete me. And waiting patiently for those who've crossed me to get what they deserve. I am looking forward to the new experiences!
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Thursday, December 15, 2011
30 Days Later
I have been busy to say the least, and in doing so I was unable to update my blog as much as I planned to.
Back in November I went to an interesting documentary presentation at my college about how Cuba survived their own peak oil crisis and how the rest of the should learn from them. It also brought up points that we have already hit peak oil back in 1970 and ever since then it has been declining. And it also pointed out how bad oil based chemical fertilizers are for the soil, and instead we should use organic fertilizers. Urban agriculture is of course the largest part for us to switch over to an oil free future, but to do so, we need to show those of us around who do not understand that it is possible and it has to be done immediately.
Earlier in December at the monthly EGB meeting; Special guests were invited (Architect, Urban Planner/Ecologist, and Mechanical Engineer [No names due to anonymity]) to talk charades about re building a section of downtown into a much more sustainable, efficient and green environment. Think of it like Urban Ecology, which is was title of this meeting. I found this really great to go to, but i also realized during it all that is way to difficult now to create change. Change has to occur on all levels and all levels have to agree before the proposed change can even start to begin to put through. So therefore change is deterred for the shear fact people do not want it. They put barriers up and make it more difficult than it should be.
The thing I have found the most, shocking, to me at least was how much this year has change for me. Not for the better nor for the worse. During the Winter and Spring this year I was still in a long distance relationship; I suffered and grieved during the summer when she mistreated, abused, and broke up with me and now, this Christmas (December, but close enough) here I am again single and confused about all what has happened.
How is it that we when something is good we don't appreciated it when we should and only when everything starts falling to pieces we turn to the closest person or thing to blame literally everything on. Oh it is THIS because YOU did THIS. Like where is the logic in that? A+B+C+D=Z? What the Hell? That is like saying you know everything and you should be aloud to do anything! Which is being quite dogmatic.
I just don't know where I stand now a days. I know where I am going, and i have a plan B (going to Wyotech to learn Custom Automotive Fabrication, for those wondering), hopefully not going to have to go down that road. I realize that the past cannot be changed but I am able to shape the future. And I know that there is someone out there for me... somewhere. It is just a matter of time when we meet.
As for the rest of our fickle world. What else is there so say when everything has been said? What else can be done when very few listen? Who does one turn to create change that is needed oh so bad? Questioning what must be done is worth the words on the page won't suffice since no answers are given and only time will tell who the true and real leaders are.
Back in November I went to an interesting documentary presentation at my college about how Cuba survived their own peak oil crisis and how the rest of the should learn from them. It also brought up points that we have already hit peak oil back in 1970 and ever since then it has been declining. And it also pointed out how bad oil based chemical fertilizers are for the soil, and instead we should use organic fertilizers. Urban agriculture is of course the largest part for us to switch over to an oil free future, but to do so, we need to show those of us around who do not understand that it is possible and it has to be done immediately.
Earlier in December at the monthly EGB meeting; Special guests were invited (Architect, Urban Planner/Ecologist, and Mechanical Engineer [No names due to anonymity]) to talk charades about re building a section of downtown into a much more sustainable, efficient and green environment. Think of it like Urban Ecology, which is was title of this meeting. I found this really great to go to, but i also realized during it all that is way to difficult now to create change. Change has to occur on all levels and all levels have to agree before the proposed change can even start to begin to put through. So therefore change is deterred for the shear fact people do not want it. They put barriers up and make it more difficult than it should be.
The thing I have found the most, shocking, to me at least was how much this year has change for me. Not for the better nor for the worse. During the Winter and Spring this year I was still in a long distance relationship; I suffered and grieved during the summer when she mistreated, abused, and broke up with me and now, this Christmas (December, but close enough) here I am again single and confused about all what has happened.
How is it that we when something is good we don't appreciated it when we should and only when everything starts falling to pieces we turn to the closest person or thing to blame literally everything on. Oh it is THIS because YOU did THIS. Like where is the logic in that? A+B+C+D=Z? What the Hell? That is like saying you know everything and you should be aloud to do anything! Which is being quite dogmatic.
I just don't know where I stand now a days. I know where I am going, and i have a plan B (going to Wyotech to learn Custom Automotive Fabrication, for those wondering), hopefully not going to have to go down that road. I realize that the past cannot be changed but I am able to shape the future. And I know that there is someone out there for me... somewhere. It is just a matter of time when we meet.
As for the rest of our fickle world. What else is there so say when everything has been said? What else can be done when very few listen? Who does one turn to create change that is needed oh so bad? Questioning what must be done is worth the words on the page won't suffice since no answers are given and only time will tell who the true and real leaders are.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Day 15 Broken Barriers & Bleeding Hearts
My classes today were well, the same as usual. Just it sucks to hear that Bill McKibben will be in Vancouver doing a speech on climate change at UBC. I wish I could go, but well, it is at 12:30pm and I have class tomorrow.
I am still worked up about the fact i can't meet anyone close to what I would like to go out with. Am I destined to be forever single? I seriously doubt it since 'forever' is just one of those words that takes everything out of context around it. Really, it is just the loneliness that bugs me. Well, maybe not bugs per say, more like taunts me. What is it about me that makes it so people do not want to ask me out? Sure I have been asked by some girls in the past but geez they were not my type. Since then, well, I have been the only one asking here and there, ending up no where. Like how many creative, determined, inspired, activist guys are there? To go in more detail... I am determined to change the world regardless how hard it is. Positive Change. I feel like I am one in a million, possibly even one in a hundred million.
I can think of so- so many people out there in our world who are worse than me and yet, they seem to find someone only to end up ruin each other lives. Yeah I know I am a pessimist in one ways, but hey it is the truth. Life isn't always sugar and lollipops. You are going to hit bumps in the road, shit is going to hit the proverbial, and you'll feel blue for a day, week, or a month. But by all means i don't want to bash other people over the head who I don't even know, since this blog does not concern them nor affect them. It is simply about me and my tough journey towards my career goal and possible new lifestyle.
I have spoken to a few people out there saying that the cliche 'good guys finish last' is not true. It is all determined by the individual and their actions. So how come then, the guys who miss-treat and abuse girls attract them? Same goes for guys getting into relationships with girls who abuse guys, which you don't hear of much. Yet as being one of those good guys, I seem to, well... don't ever get approached by anyone. But that could also be because it is uncommon for a girl to ask a guy out. It does happen, I am not saying it doesn't but I have yet to have it happen to me (well besides in the past in school when it was all puppy love).
The two things which seem to have gone out the window and shattered on the ground below are Compatibility and Commitment. Hence the reason why the Divorce rate and break up rates are so damn high. Like will anything last in our fast paced world today? Sure I like you and alll... (3 months later) Why did i ask you out in the first place? Get lost!
We have come so far, only to end up with more relationship issues and problems. Does love exist? Do Soul mates even exist? What is real in a relationship and what is just done to get laid? See the world the way I see it and you'll understand exactly what I am getting at.
I am still worked up about the fact i can't meet anyone close to what I would like to go out with. Am I destined to be forever single? I seriously doubt it since 'forever' is just one of those words that takes everything out of context around it. Really, it is just the loneliness that bugs me. Well, maybe not bugs per say, more like taunts me. What is it about me that makes it so people do not want to ask me out? Sure I have been asked by some girls in the past but geez they were not my type. Since then, well, I have been the only one asking here and there, ending up no where. Like how many creative, determined, inspired, activist guys are there? To go in more detail... I am determined to change the world regardless how hard it is. Positive Change. I feel like I am one in a million, possibly even one in a hundred million.
I can think of so- so many people out there in our world who are worse than me and yet, they seem to find someone only to end up ruin each other lives. Yeah I know I am a pessimist in one ways, but hey it is the truth. Life isn't always sugar and lollipops. You are going to hit bumps in the road, shit is going to hit the proverbial, and you'll feel blue for a day, week, or a month. But by all means i don't want to bash other people over the head who I don't even know, since this blog does not concern them nor affect them. It is simply about me and my tough journey towards my career goal and possible new lifestyle.
I have spoken to a few people out there saying that the cliche 'good guys finish last' is not true. It is all determined by the individual and their actions. So how come then, the guys who miss-treat and abuse girls attract them? Same goes for guys getting into relationships with girls who abuse guys, which you don't hear of much. Yet as being one of those good guys, I seem to, well... don't ever get approached by anyone. But that could also be because it is uncommon for a girl to ask a guy out. It does happen, I am not saying it doesn't but I have yet to have it happen to me (well besides in the past in school when it was all puppy love).
The two things which seem to have gone out the window and shattered on the ground below are Compatibility and Commitment. Hence the reason why the Divorce rate and break up rates are so damn high. Like will anything last in our fast paced world today? Sure I like you and alll... (3 months later) Why did i ask you out in the first place? Get lost!
We have come so far, only to end up with more relationship issues and problems. Does love exist? Do Soul mates even exist? What is real in a relationship and what is just done to get laid? See the world the way I see it and you'll understand exactly what I am getting at.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Day 14 Cruel World
Beginning of the week yet again. Today in my physcial geography we got back our second exams before going our the stream assessment lab and starting a new lab. But yeah no need to go on about that. In my other geography today we talked about deforestation in Asia.
Again the world isn't cruel because of my classes... it is because after falling out of love (which i talked about previously) it is hard trying to find someone to ask out. It seems to be whenever i consider the possibility of asking someone out i find out either they are taken or of course the other thing which isn't interested.
How does one find love in this world when it is so messed up?
Messed up like people dating when they are not compatible (astrology wise). What I am getting at is... certain signs do not mix. At. All. And then of course there is the opposite side, age differences. It took me a bit to get out of a thinking that only someone younger than me I should date. But I ended up going out with and being in a relationship with someone older than me. Just there should be morale limits of course. Limits like going out with people only 2-3 years younger and 2-3 years older than you. Anything else could either be seen as cradle robbing or going out with a cougar. Yeah i know... I am crazy for saying such things. But who would let their 18 year old daughter date a 27 year old guy? I doubt any parents would let their kid do such a thing.
On the flip side who as parents who destroy a relationship when their daughter is going out with a guy only 2 years younger? see what I am getting at.
I feel like just posting what type of person I am looking for here, since you never know right?
All I would like to meet is a gal born in 1988, 1990, 1991, 1993 or 1994 (referencing Eastern Astrology Compatibility). An Earth (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) or Water Sign (Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio). Someone who is creative/artistic, intellectual plans ahead/sets goals, adventurous, athletic and an activist for our environment. Someone who is genuine and wanting to help others by giving back to the community. Someone who is committed and in it for the long run.
I know it sounds like a lot, but I know there must be someone somewhere out there.
I am a Taurus, born in the year of the Horse and if you would like to know more about me, feel free to message.
Again the world isn't cruel because of my classes... it is because after falling out of love (which i talked about previously) it is hard trying to find someone to ask out. It seems to be whenever i consider the possibility of asking someone out i find out either they are taken or of course the other thing which isn't interested.
How does one find love in this world when it is so messed up?
Messed up like people dating when they are not compatible (astrology wise). What I am getting at is... certain signs do not mix. At. All. And then of course there is the opposite side, age differences. It took me a bit to get out of a thinking that only someone younger than me I should date. But I ended up going out with and being in a relationship with someone older than me. Just there should be morale limits of course. Limits like going out with people only 2-3 years younger and 2-3 years older than you. Anything else could either be seen as cradle robbing or going out with a cougar. Yeah i know... I am crazy for saying such things. But who would let their 18 year old daughter date a 27 year old guy? I doubt any parents would let their kid do such a thing.
On the flip side who as parents who destroy a relationship when their daughter is going out with a guy only 2 years younger? see what I am getting at.
I feel like just posting what type of person I am looking for here, since you never know right?
All I would like to meet is a gal born in 1988, 1990, 1991, 1993 or 1994 (referencing Eastern Astrology Compatibility). An Earth (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) or Water Sign (Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio). Someone who is creative/artistic, intellectual plans ahead/sets goals, adventurous, athletic and an activist for our environment. Someone who is genuine and wanting to help others by giving back to the community. Someone who is committed and in it for the long run.
I know it sounds like a lot, but I know there must be someone somewhere out there.
I am a Taurus, born in the year of the Horse and if you would like to know more about me, feel free to message.
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Day 13 Questing
One Word... Skyrim. I did nothing else. I am only posting this so people aren't wondering what I did today.
By playing the game the whole weekend, I didn't get anything done and my novel as stalled.
By playing the game the whole weekend, I didn't get anything done and my novel as stalled.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Day 12 Lazy Day
Well, Yesterday night before the war game I order and began download Skyrim. Since I have been working hard the last few months I basically spend the whole day playing the game.
For those who don't know me when i was in high school I use to play LOTRO during the summer, 16 hours a day, everyday. I had no life and I admit it. I have gone past that point and can live without games. But I do need them some days to get away and out of the world into a virtual one.
For those who don't know me when i was in high school I use to play LOTRO during the summer, 16 hours a day, everyday. I had no life and I admit it. I have gone past that point and can live without games. But I do need them some days to get away and out of the world into a virtual one.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Day 11 We Shall Never Forget
Remembrance Day - The Day we morn the loss of all those who gave their life for peace and security for everyone now.
It makes me sad to hear in the news today at vandals defacing a memorial to those. Like don't you have something better to do?
Regardless where you are in the world, regardless what culture you are, and regardless what you believe in; everyone should take time of the day to remember. But more and more today young people around my age just seem to not care anymore. So what happened in the past... how does this affect us now? I swear some days I wish people wouldn't be so damn ignorant. The world seems to be in a continuous state pain and misery, with a very short period of peace. That is... if we ever had any peace.
What bothers me is how our world deals with those who have committed war crimes. Sure we punish those who we fought against but what about the criminals at home? After taking my history course during the summer, I was disturb to find out that those behind the nuclear bombing of Japan got away with murder. Murder of over 250,000 people.
Anyways, it is hard to change the world; but the world is creating its own change so either go with the flow or get knocked off the edge.
Also today marks the Official Launch of Skyrim.
It makes me sad to hear in the news today at vandals defacing a memorial to those. Like don't you have something better to do?
Regardless where you are in the world, regardless what culture you are, and regardless what you believe in; everyone should take time of the day to remember. But more and more today young people around my age just seem to not care anymore. So what happened in the past... how does this affect us now? I swear some days I wish people wouldn't be so damn ignorant. The world seems to be in a continuous state pain and misery, with a very short period of peace. That is... if we ever had any peace.
What bothers me is how our world deals with those who have committed war crimes. Sure we punish those who we fought against but what about the criminals at home? After taking my history course during the summer, I was disturb to find out that those behind the nuclear bombing of Japan got away with murder. Murder of over 250,000 people.
Anyways, it is hard to change the world; but the world is creating its own change so either go with the flow or get knocked off the edge.
Also today marks the Official Launch of Skyrim.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Day 10 Half n' Half
Yay! Thursday! The way I planned out college schedule this year is so perfect since I only go four days a week to class and a three day long weekend. Anyways today wasn't all that interesting, I had a lecture in the morning and went home for lunch. But since i was working so- so hard this week I passed on my second class. I don't have to worry too much about my physics class, since this is my second time around and I have all my notes from the year when I took it.
I just spend the rest of the day at a friends counting down for the launch of Elder Scroll V: Skyrim. And then watching him play the game until midnight.
So yeah not much done, not much achieve but everyone needs some R n R?
I just spend the rest of the day at a friends counting down for the launch of Elder Scroll V: Skyrim. And then watching him play the game until midnight.
So yeah not much done, not much achieve but everyone needs some R n R?
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Day 9 Field Trip
The last few days I haven't been down on the sailboat because I am busy with other things, mostly college things. Today for my physical geography class we went down to a local stream (creek which was heavily engineered) to do a stream assessment. We had three hours to do, but even that was cutting it for the amount of data we have to collect. The class was divided up into three groups and then each group was assigned (since i did it once before I got priority and picked for my group) a section of the stream. Then the groups had to fill out 4 of the 5 pages of the form. In my group unfortunately there was a lot of confusion of what must be done and about the numbers. We also ended up pulling out a tire, a safety cone and 11 vodka bottles from the creek.
I admit to slacking off after both of my classes today and relaxing instead of doing work. But everyone is aloud to have a break right?
I admit to slacking off after both of my classes today and relaxing instead of doing work. But everyone is aloud to have a break right?
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Day 8 Assignments, Application & Novel
What does one do when they have three written things for my application, twelve things to do for my portfolio, two college essays and presentations on that topic (due in Dec) and a report. Not including homework and of course.. exams.
Also as much as i want to add to my novel, I have it an invisible wall of sorts. I am trying to add to my chapters which go into greater deeper of each social issue, by explaining what it is, what is wrong with it and of course what should be done to solve it; possible solution of course.
In some ways I wish i could just clone myself three time overs so I could get everything done overnight. But since that isn't possible.... I think it is worth looking into meditation or something to keep myself calm. Since if I would lose it and let the ball drop I would be in a lot tighter situation than I am in now.
I did manage to add a little bit more to my novel today, which is good of course, but it wasn't much.
I am running out of time to get all this done before i go back to working and going to college at the same time.
So stresssed!
Also as much as i want to add to my novel, I have it an invisible wall of sorts. I am trying to add to my chapters which go into greater deeper of each social issue, by explaining what it is, what is wrong with it and of course what should be done to solve it; possible solution of course.
In some ways I wish i could just clone myself three time overs so I could get everything done overnight. But since that isn't possible.... I think it is worth looking into meditation or something to keep myself calm. Since if I would lose it and let the ball drop I would be in a lot tighter situation than I am in now.
I did manage to add a little bit more to my novel today, which is good of course, but it wasn't much.
I am running out of time to get all this done before i go back to working and going to college at the same time.
So stresssed!
Monday, November 7, 2011
Day 7 Land Locked
It was interesting last night, since I could feel the freighter go by on board the boat. I didn't really get much done on my novel since, well I had to study for a midterm which i wrote on Monday morning. Mind you last night was also one of the calmest nights on the water I have had out the days i have been on board the sailboat. Due to the fact of living on a boat without a shower and hot water I have decided to wake up earlier so i could go home and get ready before heading off to college. By doing this it also gave me more time to study for my midterm which we had 3 hours to write and a lot of questions to answer.
After lunch I was able to add more to my novel and a little bit more after my last class while i was waiting for my club meeting. It is progressing slowly so far. 2840 words when I should be at 10,000 by now. I am trying my damnest to reach the number of words i need to write a day, but since my novel is a non-fiction about real world issues make it a lot more difficult. I understand that and that is one of the reasons why i am writing to improve the world. But inorder to have to possibly published in Jan I need to finish the novel in November and of course all the other things I need to get done for application for UBC.
I am also going to spend the next two days on land (today and tomorrow night) because of my classes since i have a field trip coming up on Wednesday.
After lunch I was able to add more to my novel and a little bit more after my last class while i was waiting for my club meeting. It is progressing slowly so far. 2840 words when I should be at 10,000 by now. I am trying my damnest to reach the number of words i need to write a day, but since my novel is a non-fiction about real world issues make it a lot more difficult. I understand that and that is one of the reasons why i am writing to improve the world. But inorder to have to possibly published in Jan I need to finish the novel in November and of course all the other things I need to get done for application for UBC.
I am also going to spend the next two days on land (today and tomorrow night) because of my classes since i have a field trip coming up on Wednesday.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Day 6 Manic Midterms and Lack of Time
Today was by far really different since I when i woke up I went from the marina i was staying back home before running a few errands. As for sleeping on the boat it is pretty nice, thought i wish the boat I was on had a few things... like hot water. But then again this is just my first experience living aboard so you gotta start somewhere and it aint always the way you want it to be. I do find it a lot easier to study on it thought since it is really quiet and i have no distractions. Well, almost no distractions. In order for me to get internet I went to my cell phone provider to get the rocket stick (Rogers for those wondering) and while I was there I upgraded my cellphone from an old Samsung smartphone with Android 1.0 software to a much newer Samsung with 2.2, which is by far a lot faster and less buggy.
I am planning on working on my portfolio stuff later on this week when I have more free time and same goes with the novel during the week. As much as i want to hit the 100k mark, due to my lack of time able to contribute to the novel I will have to drop the bar to the contest level of 50k. Still doable, I just need more time.
I am planning on working on my portfolio stuff later on this week when I have more free time and same goes with the novel during the week. As much as i want to hit the 100k mark, due to my lack of time able to contribute to the novel I will have to drop the bar to the contest level of 50k. Still doable, I just need more time.
Saturday, November 5, 2011
Day 5 Wind and Waves
Well, I did it. I moved onto a sailboat today and am going to be spending the rest of the month of November on it. The winds were about 10 knots and of course the currents pushed the boat away from the dock creating a 1 foot (30cm) gap from the boat and the finger dock. So you had to be careful getting on and leaving making sure you or you're belongings won't end up in the drink. I also messed up earlier in the day and accidentally broke the space heater so I had to pay to replace it; bound to happen since it was my first time on the sailboat. I just need to get use to having no water pressure, no hot water (unless i boil it on the propane stove) and no shower. So thinking about it i am probably going to wake up earlier so I can come back home and get ready before heading off to college. I do have a midterm tomorrow too, so we will see how living on board will help my studies.
As for my assignments and novel, i got some progress just i was tired yesterday and without internet so i was extremely limited. I have sketch paper on the boat, college books and of course lots of novels i would like to read during the time i am on board.
I shall do an update of my word count tomorrow.
As for my assignments and novel, i got some progress just i was tired yesterday and without internet so i was extremely limited. I have sketch paper on the boat, college books and of course lots of novels i would like to read during the time i am on board.
I shall do an update of my word count tomorrow.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Day 4 Overwhelmed
I never thought I would be posting this, but I am seriously overwhelmed! I have a college midterm (second one) on Monday, I am writing (or at least trying to) for NaNoWriMo, getting my application and portfolio done for UBC and getting ready to move aboard a boat tomorrow. I feel so tired and i have so many things to do. Tomorrow I am planning to finish or almost finish my re-cycled nautical chandelier, move aboard and write like a madman until i hit the 15,000 word make. Not to mention study too like a madman for that upcoming exam. I also have three CADD drawings I need to start from scratch and finish this month, sketches and a few models. I wish in a way i could clone myself three times and get all this done a lot sooner.
It bothers me that my mind has gone blank with my non-fiction novel. Since each and everyday counts towards achieving the 50k (in my case 100k) word goal. I really really want to write (kinda why I am able to post here) and get it done but, yeah, i'm lost where to go.
World Goal for today: 13,600
Amount Written: 0
Total Words: 1468
Goal: 100,000
Actually now when i look at it, 15k isn't enough. I need a MINIMUM of 17k to get back on track. *roll eyes*
It bothers me that my mind has gone blank with my non-fiction novel. Since each and everyday counts towards achieving the 50k (in my case 100k) word goal. I really really want to write (kinda why I am able to post here) and get it done but, yeah, i'm lost where to go.
World Goal for today: 13,600
Amount Written: 0
Total Words: 1468
Goal: 100,000
Actually now when i look at it, 15k isn't enough. I need a MINIMUM of 17k to get back on track. *roll eyes*
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Day 3 EGB (Emerging Green Builders)
Today was interesting, since in my human geography class we had a debate about the whole Occupy movement, where the class divided up into groups to talk about each side of the movement. I tried to be on the 1% movement (I support the 99% outside the debate) to see if we could voice an opposition to the 99%. It was far from unsuccessful, since it was so hard to find anything supporting the super rich. Really there is so many reasons why the 99% is correct in what they are fighting for. After lunch I managed to add more to my novel, not as much as i like thought. And then for my final class for the week, which was physics it wasn't that interesting but very tiring.
Anyways after dinner I went down to the Emerging Green Builders Victoria branch meeting which was really interesting. We had a guest speaker come from the government to talk about government policies and looking for input about improving their green policies. I also was able to network and chat with other people who were down there (either in the field or in a related field) and got information about Cascadia, LEED certification and more.
As for novel, it is sad... I didn't make much progress. I am hoping to write like 20,000 words on Saturday to get me back on track, but then I need either peace and quiet or a really really good song.
Word Goal for today: 10,200
Amount Written: 511
Total Words: 1,468
Goal: 100,000
Anyways after dinner I went down to the Emerging Green Builders Victoria branch meeting which was really interesting. We had a guest speaker come from the government to talk about government policies and looking for input about improving their green policies. I also was able to network and chat with other people who were down there (either in the field or in a related field) and got information about Cascadia, LEED certification and more.
As for novel, it is sad... I didn't make much progress. I am hoping to write like 20,000 words on Saturday to get me back on track, but then I need either peace and quiet or a really really good song.
Word Goal for today: 10,200
Amount Written: 511
Total Words: 1,468
Goal: 100,000
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Day 2 Delayed
Well, today I was planning to move on-board as I said in my previous entry. But due to the weather, rain and lots of it, I had to postpone to this weekend. However i don't mind, since it gives me more time to get more prepared and pick up a few minute last things which would be very useful - like a tarp to tie down over the boom.
It was interesting today in class, since we spent most of the class going over what is going to be on our second midterm. It took a long time - 2 hours 30 minutes to cover everything, but I am hoping to use my free time aboard the boat to study like a mad man. Then in my second geography we went downtown to see chinatown and the older parts of town. It was pretty interesting, but ugh, the rain really made that day feel so much worse. I did manage to look into getting some things for one of my portfolio projects and also found out that there is more to it. I need to go to a strictly electrical store to pick up 16 gauge wire but I did get the receptacles and some wood stripping to kinda figure out how my themed chandelier will come together.
As for NaNoWriMo, I wrote a little on the bus ride to meet my classmates downtown but most of it at home before I wrote this entry.
Word Goal for today: 6800 (3400 for each day for those wondering)
Amount Written: 957
Total Words: 957
Goal: 100,000
It was interesting today in class, since we spent most of the class going over what is going to be on our second midterm. It took a long time - 2 hours 30 minutes to cover everything, but I am hoping to use my free time aboard the boat to study like a mad man. Then in my second geography we went downtown to see chinatown and the older parts of town. It was pretty interesting, but ugh, the rain really made that day feel so much worse. I did manage to look into getting some things for one of my portfolio projects and also found out that there is more to it. I need to go to a strictly electrical store to pick up 16 gauge wire but I did get the receptacles and some wood stripping to kinda figure out how my themed chandelier will come together.
As for NaNoWriMo, I wrote a little on the bus ride to meet my classmates downtown but most of it at home before I wrote this entry.
Word Goal for today: 6800 (3400 for each day for those wondering)
Amount Written: 957
Total Words: 957
Goal: 100,000
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Day 1 NaNoWriMo
It is strange, I was thinking about what I was going to write about for National Novel Writing Month this year two months before it even started, and now I am having trouble figuring out where to start. Add the fact that now I am a landlubber until I graduate. Which in my opinion sucks, since I love being down near the ocean. I am also going to have more time to work on some parts of my portfolio during this month since as of November 2nd I am boat-sitting for a month, to see what it is like living aboard a boat. I'll be staying on a Cal 28 (I don't know the year, possible 1960-1970s) with the cabin level with the deck. So it only has standing head room through the center of the boat, I have to watch so i don't bump my head.
I was planning on also starting my novel today but could think of how or where to begin. Ironic, I can write about almost anything except the thing I want to write about the most. I guess the fact of having an exam in the afternoon didn't help the fact.
But I did write a guide/outline so I have a rough idea how I want to lay it out. Heh, gosh I am soo busy.
What is NaNoWriMo + Full time college + University Application = Not enough time in a day.
Word Goal for today: 3400
Amount Written: 0
Total Words: 0
Goal: 100,000.
Crap...
I was planning on also starting my novel today but could think of how or where to begin. Ironic, I can write about almost anything except the thing I want to write about the most. I guess the fact of having an exam in the afternoon didn't help the fact.
But I did write a guide/outline so I have a rough idea how I want to lay it out. Heh, gosh I am soo busy.
What is NaNoWriMo + Full time college + University Application = Not enough time in a day.
Word Goal for today: 3400
Amount Written: 0
Total Words: 0
Goal: 100,000.
Crap...
Monday, October 31, 2011
Eleven out of Thirty One
Due to my busy schedule this month I was unable to meet my goal for 31 posts for October. I have been slaving away on assignments and studying for exams which never seem to end. I did however get the materials for my workbench on the 20th of October, and built it over that weekend. As for my projects for my portfolio, it is slowly coming together but I am planning to get most of it done in November. I even have taken that month off work so I can everything done. On top of all that I am taking part in NaNoWriMo, with a goal of 100k words in 30 days and I might even try and get my VHF operators licence. Like that isn't enough I would like to complete all my major projects for geography. I am also planning to take an income tax course to help increase my meagre income next year.
I am also in the process of acquiring a Catalina 30, I shall not say more it is not final yet. But I shall post about it when I get it.
UPDATE: I looked into taking out a loan but due to my low income I am unable to and my parents are not willing to help out on this. So I have got to pass on this opportunity. However I am going to budget and save so when one arises in the future I can possible take advantage of it.
As The Essentials of Living Aboard Boat says (on page 33) "There are a lot of things that don't grow on trees, such as money. Money does not grow on trees. But boats do.
...Houses grow on trees, meaning that a better will always come along, even if that deal does not exist today. When you that a great deal is passing you by, don't be nervous, because there is another one coming."
(Page 258): "Be patient and thorough when choosing a boat - and remember that boats, good and bad, grow on trees."
I own the book and I recommend it to all those considering living about a boat.
I was going to write about Holidays tonight, but with having a test tomorrow and my busy schedule I have to cut this one shorter.
I am also in the process of acquiring a Catalina 30, I shall not say more it is not final yet. But I shall post about it when I get it.
UPDATE: I looked into taking out a loan but due to my low income I am unable to and my parents are not willing to help out on this. So I have got to pass on this opportunity. However I am going to budget and save so when one arises in the future I can possible take advantage of it.
As The Essentials of Living Aboard Boat says (on page 33) "There are a lot of things that don't grow on trees, such as money. Money does not grow on trees. But boats do.
...Houses grow on trees, meaning that a better will always come along, even if that deal does not exist today. When you that a great deal is passing you by, don't be nervous, because there is another one coming."
(Page 258): "Be patient and thorough when choosing a boat - and remember that boats, good and bad, grow on trees."
I own the book and I recommend it to all those considering living about a boat.
I was going to write about Holidays tonight, but with having a test tomorrow and my busy schedule I have to cut this one shorter.
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Local or Import
For those wondering I had a really busy week last week, with a test on Wednesday, exhibition on Saturday and Flyering for a club on Sunday. I also picked up the materials for a workbench which I almost finished building on the weekend.
As many of you know I am looking and searching pretty well everywhere for a sailboat. Due to the current economic crisis in the United States the boat market is flooded and the prices are substantially lower than the similar boats in Canada. But there is a lot (well maybe not that much, but more than just buying a boat locally) paperwork that you must have on hand or have to fill out when you arrive. Mostly to do with going through Customs/Canadian Border Services Agency and Transport Canada. Plus the fact you'll have to pay a duty and taxes for bringing it here.
Compared to buying a local boat at a marginally higher, in the end the costs come very close or no difference which means zero savings. But also there are less things to go wrong since you don't have to worry about all that paperwork and re-licencing.
The final thing is... do I aim to get a sailboat now, with the 12% HST still in effect or do I wait till Jan 1st 2012 to get it with only 5% GST. Its a tough call, since boats come and go on the market and it is hard to find the right one at the right place. And about the project boat, well I am going to look for something at a slightly higher price with less work needed to fix it up.
As many of you know I am looking and searching pretty well everywhere for a sailboat. Due to the current economic crisis in the United States the boat market is flooded and the prices are substantially lower than the similar boats in Canada. But there is a lot (well maybe not that much, but more than just buying a boat locally) paperwork that you must have on hand or have to fill out when you arrive. Mostly to do with going through Customs/Canadian Border Services Agency and Transport Canada. Plus the fact you'll have to pay a duty and taxes for bringing it here.
Compared to buying a local boat at a marginally higher, in the end the costs come very close or no difference which means zero savings. But also there are less things to go wrong since you don't have to worry about all that paperwork and re-licencing.
The final thing is... do I aim to get a sailboat now, with the 12% HST still in effect or do I wait till Jan 1st 2012 to get it with only 5% GST. Its a tough call, since boats come and go on the market and it is hard to find the right one at the right place. And about the project boat, well I am going to look for something at a slightly higher price with less work needed to fix it up.
Monday, October 17, 2011
New, Used or Abused
No, I am not referring to people for those wondering. Rather I am taking about different conditions you can buy or acquire boats. It has also been almost a week since i updated you all on my status. Which can simply be summed up... no progress. BUT BUT, before you think i am just a big talker i am planning tonight once i get everything done today to work until midnight on my portfolio.
Anyways, back to the topic at hand....
On Sunday I online when was online, surfing the net. I stopped one of the blogs (HoboSailor:HoboSailor | Facebook) i follow on their facebook page only to find at the very bottom, their first post a documentary called: Hold Fast (http://vimeo.com/15351476). It is a 1:15:45 long documentary about a group of four people finding, fixing up an old fiberglass yacht and sailing it in the Caribbean. I shall not say anymore for those interested in watching it.
Watching that documentary got me thinking about other ways of acquiring or buying a boat. And also brought up the topic of Derelict boats again for which, i have searched in the past. So instead of spending say... 20,000, 50,000 or even 100,000 on a used boat; I could find a derelicts or abandoned boat and fix her up. Of course that would mean getting her very cheap or better free. Just the thing is, once i've got the boat i have to get her hauled out and trailered to my parents house where i can work on her. Easier said that done, since i only know of two haul out locations on Vancouver Island. However, when you consider everything, even if it costs 4,000-6,000 to repair and fix the boat; I still save a lot of money. Not to mention if I can get it really cheap, well, it would be hard to sell any boat these days with the market flooded with so many.
I have hoping to make my search easier posted ads on UsedVictoria and Sailnet to get the word out that I am looking for such a thing. But since I am also busy with my studies i doubt i'll be able to do anything to that boat (if I happen to find one before the end of October) until mid December.
No matter where you go in the world you are going to encounter places were derelict abandoned boats have come to rest. Majestic vessels of the sea, left to degrade and fade away.
Anyways, back to the topic at hand....
On Sunday I online when was online, surfing the net. I stopped one of the blogs (HoboSailor:HoboSailor | Facebook) i follow on their facebook page only to find at the very bottom, their first post a documentary called: Hold Fast (http://vimeo.com/15351476). It is a 1:15:45 long documentary about a group of four people finding, fixing up an old fiberglass yacht and sailing it in the Caribbean. I shall not say anymore for those interested in watching it.
Watching that documentary got me thinking about other ways of acquiring or buying a boat. And also brought up the topic of Derelict boats again for which, i have searched in the past. So instead of spending say... 20,000, 50,000 or even 100,000 on a used boat; I could find a derelicts or abandoned boat and fix her up. Of course that would mean getting her very cheap or better free. Just the thing is, once i've got the boat i have to get her hauled out and trailered to my parents house where i can work on her. Easier said that done, since i only know of two haul out locations on Vancouver Island. However, when you consider everything, even if it costs 4,000-6,000 to repair and fix the boat; I still save a lot of money. Not to mention if I can get it really cheap, well, it would be hard to sell any boat these days with the market flooded with so many.
I have hoping to make my search easier posted ads on UsedVictoria and Sailnet to get the word out that I am looking for such a thing. But since I am also busy with my studies i doubt i'll be able to do anything to that boat (if I happen to find one before the end of October) until mid December.
No matter where you go in the world you are going to encounter places were derelict abandoned boats have come to rest. Majestic vessels of the sea, left to degrade and fade away.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Moving On, Moving Along
Most of us have had experienced a relationship break up in one way or another, some better than others. The feeling of having your heart think and everything you thought you knew about your relationship to vanish and disappear into thin air. And the pain of knowing that all what once was is no more. Those who haven't experienced it, should not worry about it, since it will only work out for the best even though it may feel quite the opposite. Breakups should be seen more of a blessing in disguise, since they show us how bad some relationships can be and to learn from such an experience.
Yet what I don't understand is why, in our culture we must make other people feel pain over out of our expense. It also raises the question why some relationships start when, astrology speaking, they would never, ever work out. Sadly though most of those fall apart leaving one person who was in the relationship emotionally scarred.
Our culture seems to influence everyone is the 'choice' of finding the 'right' life partner. The choice itself is the problem, since for us to find someone who clicks with us we need to get to them really well. However the term 'right' is incorrect, since there can never be a singular person to fit that assumption. It would be better off to look at it as there are multiple 'right' partners, and there are even more almost right people out there. Just then the problem is distinguishing the person you have almost everything in common with from another person you have very little in common. That is where i wish there was a better system in this world to meet people... anyways this is off topic.
Moving on from a harsh break up/divorce or any other similar situation it is hard. It would be quick it takes time, but time can only heal the wounds when enough time has passed. The toughest part of moving on is, when you have those day and you remember and recall memories of the past you wish you could forget for several years. Another thing which would be really important to have would be someone, even a counsellor, to talk to about what you went through. I am on the fence though of going to one since of my past and having overcoming depression only 4 years ago. I know I am strong enough to keep my head about the water, but i am worried that this failed relationship is slowly dragging me down.
Moving along with life, is just as hard as moving on. Since all those things you use to do and all the time you would put aside for your previous relationship now is free again. Trying to keep yourself busy is easy or hard depending on the person, and the busier you are the better off you'll be.
All I would like to do is start another relationship, but meeting the right person is the hardest part....
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Acquaintances & Friends
I have failed my challenge to myself on the first week of my blog, sorry all. I have too many things, assignments, and projects to get done in such a short amount of time it was bound that something was gonna slip. So my new goal to keep everyone up to date is to post mostly during the week and keep to a minimum of 30-31 posts a month.
Friendship is one of those thing none of us could do without, we need social contact. But in the world today there are so many ways, orders and hierarchies of who we view better than other friends. Its like the value of amity has gone from worth a lot to priceless, since today we can literally dump someone with a click of a button on facebook. So where does this leave us? We could meet someone on Monday, get to know them on Tuesday, hang out on Wednesday, Argue with them on Thursday and Dump them of Friday. Not that, that would ever happen in real live in such short time.
Acquaintances, Friends, Close Friends, True Friends, Best Friends the list goes on and on about how we define who is trusted more than others. The whole idea of organizing people into categorizes isn't new at all, and has been used in the past (i.e. where race comes from in our culture) to define who is superior to those below. However in the case of friendship, it more goes along the lines of Trust (which i shall go into more detail in a later post) and how well we get along with them. The better we get along, the more we trust and the better friends the two people become (as everyone knows). So organizing and ordering has some good things about it, but what about the people we come across who seem nice at first then stab us in our backs?
They are (hopefully) far and few between, since we would learn (hopefully) after running into the first person like that to avoid them until they realize how much they are hurting others. But chances are, those type of people have slipped through our judgment and got into our circles only to wreak havoc before getting kicked out. I would have to say that at least most of the time we cannot avoid these situation because we do not know the person's personality until we become friends with them. So sadly this is unavoidable and bound to happen on numerous occurrences.
On the other extreme... we can come across people we get along with for a bit before it goes sour and we end up blocking them trying to avoid them until a later time. But what does blocking achieve? If the person has crossed you and then blocked you, making it impossible to make up, doesn't that mean it would only get a hell of a lot worse when they try and get back into contact in the future? Most likely, that is if they see it. Any angry, rage, or revenge directed towards a former friends followed by stonewalling is like throwing fuel onto the fire hoping it will burn itself out. It WON'T! It will only grow and burn hotter and stronger, so when you do try and make amends it would be like dealing with an inferno instead of a small fire. But then again everyone is entitled to their own decisions and who they choose to be their friends.
Friendship is just one of those things we all take for granted. Without it we would be lonely and depressed. But in order to have friends you must treat your friends like you want to be treated. 'Cause what you put out in our world is guaranteed to come back to you.
Friendship is one of those thing none of us could do without, we need social contact. But in the world today there are so many ways, orders and hierarchies of who we view better than other friends. Its like the value of amity has gone from worth a lot to priceless, since today we can literally dump someone with a click of a button on facebook. So where does this leave us? We could meet someone on Monday, get to know them on Tuesday, hang out on Wednesday, Argue with them on Thursday and Dump them of Friday. Not that, that would ever happen in real live in such short time.
Acquaintances, Friends, Close Friends, True Friends, Best Friends the list goes on and on about how we define who is trusted more than others. The whole idea of organizing people into categorizes isn't new at all, and has been used in the past (i.e. where race comes from in our culture) to define who is superior to those below. However in the case of friendship, it more goes along the lines of Trust (which i shall go into more detail in a later post) and how well we get along with them. The better we get along, the more we trust and the better friends the two people become (as everyone knows). So organizing and ordering has some good things about it, but what about the people we come across who seem nice at first then stab us in our backs?
They are (hopefully) far and few between, since we would learn (hopefully) after running into the first person like that to avoid them until they realize how much they are hurting others. But chances are, those type of people have slipped through our judgment and got into our circles only to wreak havoc before getting kicked out. I would have to say that at least most of the time we cannot avoid these situation because we do not know the person's personality until we become friends with them. So sadly this is unavoidable and bound to happen on numerous occurrences.
On the other extreme... we can come across people we get along with for a bit before it goes sour and we end up blocking them trying to avoid them until a later time. But what does blocking achieve? If the person has crossed you and then blocked you, making it impossible to make up, doesn't that mean it would only get a hell of a lot worse when they try and get back into contact in the future? Most likely, that is if they see it. Any angry, rage, or revenge directed towards a former friends followed by stonewalling is like throwing fuel onto the fire hoping it will burn itself out. It WON'T! It will only grow and burn hotter and stronger, so when you do try and make amends it would be like dealing with an inferno instead of a small fire. But then again everyone is entitled to their own decisions and who they choose to be their friends.
Friendship is just one of those things we all take for granted. Without it we would be lonely and depressed. But in order to have friends you must treat your friends like you want to be treated. 'Cause what you put out in our world is guaranteed to come back to you.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Manifest Destiny
Stepping back a day to when i had the midterm, after that class in my other geography in the afternoon we watched two videos. One on Batam in Indonesia and the other one on 'getting rich' about China's economy. After that class i had some errands to run to get art supplies, sailing gear (PFD), and hobby supplies... which took me almost 2 hours downtown going between each shop. To make the whole experience more enjoyable it was raining and most of shops were closing around the time i down town so time was very limited. At one point I had to cover seven blocks, but if i would walk i would have to wait at every single intersection for the light to change. I did at one point run to cover two and a half blocks which did make a difference since the art supply store i was heading to was going to close in about an hour. I got most of what i needed when i was down there, but the stuff i couldn't get was because either the store was closed, or what i was planning on getting was out of stock.
Anyways....
Manifest Destiny, as in creating your own destiny as you go along through life is a term most of us have heard of at one point. But how far from the truth is it? If we consider this we also inadvertently consider the questions attributed to free will and its debate. Now if we were to consider the other side of the spectrum, Determinism and Fatalism (that our futures have all been decided already by a higher power and we have zero choice in our actions). Where now does this put us? Us being the world, is in stalemate unsure which is the correct way to perceive the future while the opposing side argues the exact same thing. So now where? Now what? Its not like we are the preverbal fork in the road with only two options, since there are varying degrees of free will each can argue. So that turns a simple black and white spectrum into a rainbow of colourful decisions. Is there only one correct route? How many of them add together to make up ones future?
If you are wondering about my perspective on this; I use to be a strong determinist but i have swung more towards the middle. The way I see the answer to the question about free will is simply (maybe not that simple) that our future is determined but within that determined future we have thousands of options which then determines our life's path.
To what point does one stop questioning the world around them and their future on the basis of free will? That becomes a question for each and everyone to answer, since their is no solid answer about it.
Moving along...
The reason why I am bringing this up, is because even the most focused individual will sidetrack. As for myself I still see my first priority is to become an Architect but I have ventured more than several times off course considering other interests. What those may be, range and are different from one another. I have considered Horticulture, Marine Architecture, Carpentry and the odd one Truck Diver. But every time i remind myself why i am wanting to go this route (of course Marine Architecture can be incorporated since it is related). I am doing this because I love the creativity of the design process, the rewarding process of seeing your design come to life and history/biographies of famous architects. The income itself is simply the icing on the cake, since it merely represents the amount of work that you've done you are paid for. Similar to most jobs... but then how many jobs may ask you to work a seven day week?
Another part of the dream is considering where i am going to live. The options aren't really limited but once you add the cost of rent then it becomes very limited. Hence why I am considering living on a sailboat. It may sound really romantic to lots but there is a lot more to consider than the wind and waves. In order for me to really enjoy the experience i am challenging myself on top of everything else (closer to the end of the year) to get my RYA Dayskipper and VHF operators licence before the new year. Even if would fall short and only get the VHF, I do have my PCOC so technically I could still move the boat once i find one.
One of my biggest reasons for choosing to live on a boat is because of the freedom it allows to its owner. Even if the world would go topsy turvy, i could change my lifestyle from living docked to on the hook. Just hopefully everything will improve before it gets any worse. But honesty looking at the current world issues... it is more likely to go the other way, getting a lot worse before it gets better. Which is sad is say.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Part II - Trivial Love
I realized this morning that i forgot a few other things attributed to relationships. One being cheating and the other the issue about when to have kids. As they are not inherently connected to love and moreover link to lust, these thou separate should still be consider as part of the whole larger topic.
So consider yourself the type who cheats on others... what would that be like and how would that feel?
The way it seems to play out again and again regardless whether the guy or girl does it is because there is some flaw in the relationship (that the person who is going to cheat) does not understand or does not know how to resolve. The other case is, the relationship began out of lust and was purely out of desperation. In the second case it is more likely to end in with cheating when the other person grows tired of their lover. I for one have only been cheated on so i do not understand why people do it in the first place, so all of this is speculation. My guess is the person would feel good at first but eventually their feelings will return for the person they cheated on and well, it could ultimately end with them ending their current relationship because they are unsure of their feelings.
Now consider yourself the person who gets cheated on... how would that feel like?
Imagine everything is fine and then in one day your world is turn upside down and the person you once love now doesn't want to be with you anymore. It is a heart wrenching experience and extremely painful to go through for anyone. You are left questioning yourself; why did this happen? why did it end? why did i deserve this? Depending how many people cared about your relationship and heard about it ending some of them will stem in and help you get back onto your feet. As for the person who ended it, they are probably still feeling invincible and invulnerable, thinking they are right about everything they did. Don't dwell on the past, especially if you are trying to get on with your life. Just remember to give yourself time to heal and time to recover from this. Being cheated on is one of those things that is sometimes inevitable but good things can come out of it.
Moving on, from a harsh event will only make you stronger. Also learn from such an experience and in my opinion be a bit more picky your start a relationship with.
As for kids depending where you are in the world and the culture, it might be normal to have kids when you are young. But in most of parts of the world it is trending to having kids later and closer to when the couple is in their early to mid 30s. Some cultures require marriage too before having kids. And of course the cost of raising them and giving them a life requires a lot of time and money.
For those wondering about me, I am still in recovering from having my heart ripped out from my last relationship. I feel emotionally scarred from the experience because of how sudden and rude it ended, but hope to eventually meet the right girl. But that is easier said than done when there is 7 billion people in this world.
So consider yourself the type who cheats on others... what would that be like and how would that feel?
The way it seems to play out again and again regardless whether the guy or girl does it is because there is some flaw in the relationship (that the person who is going to cheat) does not understand or does not know how to resolve. The other case is, the relationship began out of lust and was purely out of desperation. In the second case it is more likely to end in with cheating when the other person grows tired of their lover. I for one have only been cheated on so i do not understand why people do it in the first place, so all of this is speculation. My guess is the person would feel good at first but eventually their feelings will return for the person they cheated on and well, it could ultimately end with them ending their current relationship because they are unsure of their feelings.
Now consider yourself the person who gets cheated on... how would that feel like?
Imagine everything is fine and then in one day your world is turn upside down and the person you once love now doesn't want to be with you anymore. It is a heart wrenching experience and extremely painful to go through for anyone. You are left questioning yourself; why did this happen? why did it end? why did i deserve this? Depending how many people cared about your relationship and heard about it ending some of them will stem in and help you get back onto your feet. As for the person who ended it, they are probably still feeling invincible and invulnerable, thinking they are right about everything they did. Don't dwell on the past, especially if you are trying to get on with your life. Just remember to give yourself time to heal and time to recover from this. Being cheated on is one of those things that is sometimes inevitable but good things can come out of it.
Moving on, from a harsh event will only make you stronger. Also learn from such an experience and in my opinion be a bit more picky your start a relationship with.
As for kids depending where you are in the world and the culture, it might be normal to have kids when you are young. But in most of parts of the world it is trending to having kids later and closer to when the couple is in their early to mid 30s. Some cultures require marriage too before having kids. And of course the cost of raising them and giving them a life requires a lot of time and money.
For those wondering about me, I am still in recovering from having my heart ripped out from my last relationship. I feel emotionally scarred from the experience because of how sudden and rude it ended, but hope to eventually meet the right girl. But that is easier said than done when there is 7 billion people in this world.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Trivial Love
I said was gonna write a post with this heading and here it is, same day 'cause i just want to vent about the topic. I hope you like long winded because I plan on giving myself an hour to write this before i call it a night.
Love, as most, well everyone sees it as a 'connection' between two people. But is there really such a thing? Yes Culturally and No biologically. Love (the word) can be seen as a cultural creation to express the feeling we have towards someone we want to mate with. Each cultural and/or religion has adapted it to fit their beliefs and for this reason the line has became extremely blurred. Biologically speaking, we are all hard wired to get down and dirty.
So now the question is... has love done anything good for our society? For that you would have to define good. Love is like the son or daughter of lust and jealousy. You cannot have one without the others, since it is inherent that everyone is jealous in one way or another. Like when you see a hotter nicer looking guy or girl in the mall and you question yourself about your current relationship (not saying that everyone or anyone does that). Lust on the other hand is our hormones going on overdrive and pushing us to find someone to mate with.
Just the thing is, our society has put social barriers to control people in their pursuit of lust, mostly to stop people from assaulting people and ruining other people's lives. Which is very good to have, yet... then how come we still hear about these things in the news? Its sad to see or hear about people getting raped and then those who commit such an idiotic crime to go to jail. Would sterilization of those who apparently can't respect the rights of others be too far? Probably to most people and Amnesty since it goes against human rights.
Anyways....
Moving on to relationships...
More and more these days people are meeting online plus the fact people are living longer... should this not then mean more happy relationships? Apparently quite the opposite. People are breaking up here and there and frickin' everywhere! Seriously. It does not matter if you are in the western world or developing nations or those just starting to development (maybe not as much). People get together and break up... get together and break up. You get the idea. What has happened to Commitment? Its like in our digital world commitment has disappeared and has almost become non-existent. People get together hoping they've met the one only to end up with their heart on floor and their lover taking an axe to it. There are some people however who do meet when they are young and marry for live, which i would definitely call them really lucky. And then there are others who go from relationship to relationship, confused, unsure, and testing the water per say.
We could even drag astrology in here for how it defines everyone and the sign compatibility. I've gotta say it is pretty damn close. Some signs should avoid each other while others who are suppose to be should definitely get together. Surprisingly there are a lot of miss-matched marriages in our world where signs that should never be together, get together and have kids. Now explain to me this, how does a miss-matched judge a good boyfriend or girlfriend when they them self are incompatible? Sadly it is simple... screw over their kids lives.
Pause for a second... think about the priorities when you are in a relationship. What should come first? First should always be love no doubt about it. IF if anything else supersedes it, then ask yourself, is the relationship i am in now really the one i want to be in 15 years from now? Really does anyone want to be in a relationship when MONEY is the number one priority. Yeah sure it is important, but if it is more important than love, then your relationship is a lie 'cause there is NO love.
Also how come with relationship these days very very few people know who to end it correctly. It seems to be when the shit hits the fan IT HITS THE FAN! The worst ways of breaking a relationship begins by stonewalling your lover and refusing to speak to them. Followed by a text or IM or social media message destroying what love was left. The stupidity of going this route is that you have bombed and emotionally scarred your former lover and the chance of there being friendship at the end of this is zero. All because they will probably feel so hurt they will have to go to their friends and possibly yours for help or advice. Seriously our culture needs to work on how to end things a lot more respectfully.
But if you have made it this far and are planning to get married well, there still a bit more to go. Marriage these days, in some countries is going down all because people don't see it necessary. They would rather be common law instead. The interesting thing is there are so many different types of ceremonies out there for each religion and of course for those people who would rather have their own unique ceremony. So why would someone pass up the opportunity of having a good time with the person they love and make it official? I'll let you think about that...
The few things in this world I wish could change are... the Divorce rate cause it is way too high. I would like to see if we could come up with a free more refined way for people to meet. Also there should be better support networks in for people in relationships regardless if they are long distance or same town. There should be more education about relationships and how to handle getting out of them if need be. And finally people should respect everyone else regardless where they are in the world more.
We gotta Let Love In and throw Hate into the Bin.
Love, as most, well everyone sees it as a 'connection' between two people. But is there really such a thing? Yes Culturally and No biologically. Love (the word) can be seen as a cultural creation to express the feeling we have towards someone we want to mate with. Each cultural and/or religion has adapted it to fit their beliefs and for this reason the line has became extremely blurred. Biologically speaking, we are all hard wired to get down and dirty.
So now the question is... has love done anything good for our society? For that you would have to define good. Love is like the son or daughter of lust and jealousy. You cannot have one without the others, since it is inherent that everyone is jealous in one way or another. Like when you see a hotter nicer looking guy or girl in the mall and you question yourself about your current relationship (not saying that everyone or anyone does that). Lust on the other hand is our hormones going on overdrive and pushing us to find someone to mate with.
Just the thing is, our society has put social barriers to control people in their pursuit of lust, mostly to stop people from assaulting people and ruining other people's lives. Which is very good to have, yet... then how come we still hear about these things in the news? Its sad to see or hear about people getting raped and then those who commit such an idiotic crime to go to jail. Would sterilization of those who apparently can't respect the rights of others be too far? Probably to most people and Amnesty since it goes against human rights.
Anyways....
Moving on to relationships...
More and more these days people are meeting online plus the fact people are living longer... should this not then mean more happy relationships? Apparently quite the opposite. People are breaking up here and there and frickin' everywhere! Seriously. It does not matter if you are in the western world or developing nations or those just starting to development (maybe not as much). People get together and break up... get together and break up. You get the idea. What has happened to Commitment? Its like in our digital world commitment has disappeared and has almost become non-existent. People get together hoping they've met the one only to end up with their heart on floor and their lover taking an axe to it. There are some people however who do meet when they are young and marry for live, which i would definitely call them really lucky. And then there are others who go from relationship to relationship, confused, unsure, and testing the water per say.
We could even drag astrology in here for how it defines everyone and the sign compatibility. I've gotta say it is pretty damn close. Some signs should avoid each other while others who are suppose to be should definitely get together. Surprisingly there are a lot of miss-matched marriages in our world where signs that should never be together, get together and have kids. Now explain to me this, how does a miss-matched judge a good boyfriend or girlfriend when they them self are incompatible? Sadly it is simple... screw over their kids lives.
Pause for a second... think about the priorities when you are in a relationship. What should come first? First should always be love no doubt about it. IF if anything else supersedes it, then ask yourself, is the relationship i am in now really the one i want to be in 15 years from now? Really does anyone want to be in a relationship when MONEY is the number one priority. Yeah sure it is important, but if it is more important than love, then your relationship is a lie 'cause there is NO love.
Also how come with relationship these days very very few people know who to end it correctly. It seems to be when the shit hits the fan IT HITS THE FAN! The worst ways of breaking a relationship begins by stonewalling your lover and refusing to speak to them. Followed by a text or IM or social media message destroying what love was left. The stupidity of going this route is that you have bombed and emotionally scarred your former lover and the chance of there being friendship at the end of this is zero. All because they will probably feel so hurt they will have to go to their friends and possibly yours for help or advice. Seriously our culture needs to work on how to end things a lot more respectfully.
But if you have made it this far and are planning to get married well, there still a bit more to go. Marriage these days, in some countries is going down all because people don't see it necessary. They would rather be common law instead. The interesting thing is there are so many different types of ceremonies out there for each religion and of course for those people who would rather have their own unique ceremony. So why would someone pass up the opportunity of having a good time with the person they love and make it official? I'll let you think about that...
The few things in this world I wish could change are... the Divorce rate cause it is way too high. I would like to see if we could come up with a free more refined way for people to meet. Also there should be better support networks in for people in relationships regardless if they are long distance or same town. There should be more education about relationships and how to handle getting out of them if need be. And finally people should respect everyone else regardless where they are in the world more.
We gotta Let Love In and throw Hate into the Bin.
Testing...Testing...Testing...
The coming next three weeks i have midterms on each of those weeks. Which means i have to pause everything i am doing the day/night before to study. So I can scratch out three days this month to work on my admission requirements. But that shouldn't be too big of a deal, since I can use the following days after the tests to work on assignments from college and of course admission requirements. The only catch is, i might be working on those nights.
I have kinda (emphasis on Kinda) started looking for a 30 foot yacht to live on even though I do not know what it is like. The good news is that there are about 70 listings near or not to far from where i am. But the price range is quite considerable. I am also not planning on buying one this year because the HST (Harmonized Sales Tax) still applies, but as of January 1st 2012 we'll back to GST (goods and services) and PST (provincal sales tax). That would mean on such a purchase there is a good chance i will save several hundred dollars.
I was thinking on the way home of two other post titles... Trivial Love, and one more i am unable to remember at the moment. I plan to hopefully write about those in my upcoming blog entries. I also don't want to overlap anything i plan on writing in my novel, since then it would take the originality out of the novel.
Fall also is finally here on the west coast... it is cold and windy, but luckily no rain yet.
I am unsure what i'll post tomorrow since i'll most likely be writing my post after my midterm. we'll see, maybe something will inspire me.
I have kinda (emphasis on Kinda) started looking for a 30 foot yacht to live on even though I do not know what it is like. The good news is that there are about 70 listings near or not to far from where i am. But the price range is quite considerable. I am also not planning on buying one this year because the HST (Harmonized Sales Tax) still applies, but as of January 1st 2012 we'll back to GST (goods and services) and PST (provincal sales tax). That would mean on such a purchase there is a good chance i will save several hundred dollars.
I was thinking on the way home of two other post titles... Trivial Love, and one more i am unable to remember at the moment. I plan to hopefully write about those in my upcoming blog entries. I also don't want to overlap anything i plan on writing in my novel, since then it would take the originality out of the novel.
Fall also is finally here on the west coast... it is cold and windy, but luckily no rain yet.
I am unsure what i'll post tomorrow since i'll most likely be writing my post after my midterm. we'll see, maybe something will inspire me.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Day by Day
So now, waiting in between classes i figured it would be a good time to add a short entry to my blog. For those wondering how much I am trying to accomplish and how much time i have allocated for all my projects i think now would be a good time to mention it.
Currently I am going to college four days a week 10:30am till 4:30pm, taking four courses. Three geography's and one physics. I am also working three days a week (Thursday till Saturday). I have joined also a local sailing club which i am hoping to go sailing every Sunday and as of the new year i am going to re-join the local archery club so I can practice on their ranges come the new year. I am also part of a college club too which meets every two weeks.
What I have to do at the moment is for the most part the application for my program. Which is; a questionnaire, biographical statement (resume), statement of interest, two academic references and a max 18-page portfolio of my creative work. Have i started any of this? Not yet. How much time have i given myself? Only till the end of October. Why so little time? Because in November I have other plans I wanna do that will take up most of my time.
As of November I am going to be taking part in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) which is a 30 day competition to write 50,000 words/175 pages. I am challenging myself to do double that in the same time... 100,000 words in 30 days. Crazy? Hell no! I just have a novel idea I want to get done so i can edit it in December and possibly publish in the new year. I also at the moment trying to also find someone in town who would let me boat sit for a month. Boat sit similar to house sitting except for the fact it'll be a sailboat and there is limited living space. Limited if you compare to a house, they are fairly roomy.
If i like the experience I am definitely going to go forward and buy myself a 30 foot (10 meter) sailboat to live on while I am in Vancouver. I have already finished a book on living aboard a boat that helped inform me about this decision.
Currently I am going to college four days a week 10:30am till 4:30pm, taking four courses. Three geography's and one physics. I am also working three days a week (Thursday till Saturday). I have joined also a local sailing club which i am hoping to go sailing every Sunday and as of the new year i am going to re-join the local archery club so I can practice on their ranges come the new year. I am also part of a college club too which meets every two weeks.
What I have to do at the moment is for the most part the application for my program. Which is; a questionnaire, biographical statement (resume), statement of interest, two academic references and a max 18-page portfolio of my creative work. Have i started any of this? Not yet. How much time have i given myself? Only till the end of October. Why so little time? Because in November I have other plans I wanna do that will take up most of my time.
As of November I am going to be taking part in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) which is a 30 day competition to write 50,000 words/175 pages. I am challenging myself to do double that in the same time... 100,000 words in 30 days. Crazy? Hell no! I just have a novel idea I want to get done so i can edit it in December and possibly publish in the new year. I also at the moment trying to also find someone in town who would let me boat sit for a month. Boat sit similar to house sitting except for the fact it'll be a sailboat and there is limited living space. Limited if you compare to a house, they are fairly roomy.
If i like the experience I am definitely going to go forward and buy myself a 30 foot (10 meter) sailboat to live on while I am in Vancouver. I have already finished a book on living aboard a boat that helped inform me about this decision.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
The Beginning & Procastination
Today is the beginning towards a brighter future,
Towards a journey down the road less traveled,
All in hope to achieve what I aspire,
Challenges laying everywhere,
heartache and despair,
But that was then and this is now,
moving on from the sorrow,
down the road to a brighter tomorrow.
I haven't written any poetry since 2009, which is ironic since i seem to be able to write more when my mind is weighed down with many things. This year to say the least has been really shitty. It started out great but the shit hit the fan and destroyed the house in the summer. So I've been slowly rebuilding... and recovering from all that. Mainy of my friends say I deserve better, but after what i went through well, they couldn't be more correct. And i've gotta agree with one of my moms friends who gave me some really good wisdom. I am just gonna sum it up... Young and Dumb and Full of Cum. Simply put don't rush to settle down 'cause the next thing you know you'll be signing will be the divorce papers.
Anyways, my live simply hasn't been easy. I feel some days like world are against me. But that could just be an over exaggeration. Since I have a lot of things I am doing plus the fact that I know so much about how the world works (Geography and Sociology courses I have/am taking in college) makes it kinda... interesting.
My idea of this blog is that it will be a place for me to write what is on my mind and a place to talk about becoming and architect while changing my lifestyle from being a land lubber to possibly a sailor. Sailor 'cause I would be living on a sailboat.
Like the title stated, I have other things I must get done but I am writing this instead. I am going to challenge myself on top of everything else I am doing to write once everyday here.
Towards a journey down the road less traveled,
All in hope to achieve what I aspire,
Challenges laying everywhere,
heartache and despair,
But that was then and this is now,
moving on from the sorrow,
down the road to a brighter tomorrow.
I haven't written any poetry since 2009, which is ironic since i seem to be able to write more when my mind is weighed down with many things. This year to say the least has been really shitty. It started out great but the shit hit the fan and destroyed the house in the summer. So I've been slowly rebuilding... and recovering from all that. Mainy of my friends say I deserve better, but after what i went through well, they couldn't be more correct. And i've gotta agree with one of my moms friends who gave me some really good wisdom. I am just gonna sum it up... Young and Dumb and Full of Cum. Simply put don't rush to settle down 'cause the next thing you know you'll be signing will be the divorce papers.
Anyways, my live simply hasn't been easy. I feel some days like world are against me. But that could just be an over exaggeration. Since I have a lot of things I am doing plus the fact that I know so much about how the world works (Geography and Sociology courses I have/am taking in college) makes it kinda... interesting.
My idea of this blog is that it will be a place for me to write what is on my mind and a place to talk about becoming and architect while changing my lifestyle from being a land lubber to possibly a sailor. Sailor 'cause I would be living on a sailboat.
Like the title stated, I have other things I must get done but I am writing this instead. I am going to challenge myself on top of everything else I am doing to write once everyday here.
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