Day 15 Broken Barriers & Bleeding Hearts

My classes today were well, the same as usual. Just it sucks to hear that Bill McKibben will be in Vancouver doing a speech on climate change at UBC. I wish I could go, but well, it is at 12:30pm and I have class tomorrow.
I am still worked up about the fact i can't meet anyone close to what I would like to go out with. Am I destined to be forever single? I seriously doubt it since 'forever' is just one of those words that takes everything out of context around it. Really, it is just the loneliness that bugs me. Well, maybe not bugs per say, more like taunts me. What is it about me that makes it so people do not want to ask me out? Sure I have been asked by some girls in the past but geez they were not my type. Since then, well, I have been the only one asking here and there, ending up no where. Like how many creative, determined, inspired, activist guys are there? To go in more detail... I am determined to change the world regardless how hard it is. Positive Change. I feel like I am one in a million, possibly even one in a hundred million.
I can think of so- so many people out there in our world who are worse than me and yet, they seem to find someone only to end up ruin each other lives. Yeah I know I am a pessimist in one ways, but hey it is the truth. Life isn't always sugar and lollipops.  You are going to hit bumps in the road, shit is going to hit the proverbial, and you'll feel blue for a day, week, or a month. But by all means i don't want to bash other people over the head who I don't even know, since this blog does not concern them nor affect them. It is simply about me and my tough journey towards my career goal and possible new lifestyle. 
I have spoken to a few people out there saying that the cliche 'good guys finish last' is not true. It is all determined by the individual and their actions. So how come then, the guys who miss-treat and abuse girls attract them? Same goes for guys getting into relationships with girls who abuse guys, which you don't hear of much. Yet as being one of those good guys, I seem to, well... don't ever get approached by anyone. But that could also be because it is uncommon for a girl to ask a guy out. It does happen, I am not saying it doesn't but I have yet to have it happen to me (well besides in the past in school when it was all puppy love).
The two things which seem to have gone out the window and shattered on the ground below are Compatibility and Commitment. Hence the reason why the Divorce rate and break up rates are so damn high. Like will anything last in our fast paced world today? Sure I like you and alll... (3 months later) Why did i ask you out in the first place? Get lost!

We have come so far, only to end up with more relationship issues and problems. Does love exist? Do Soul mates even exist? What is real in a relationship and what is just done to get laid? See the world the way I see it and you'll understand exactly what I am getting at. 

Day 14 Cruel World

Beginning of the week yet again. Today in my physcial geography we got back our second exams before going our the stream assessment lab and starting a new lab. But yeah no need to go on about that. In my other geography today we talked about deforestation in Asia.
Again the world isn't cruel because of my classes... it is because after falling out of love (which i talked about previously) it is hard trying to find someone to ask out. It seems to be whenever i consider the possibility of asking someone out i find out either they are taken or of course the other thing which isn't interested.
How does one find love in this world when it is so messed up?
Messed up like people dating when they are not compatible (astrology wise). What I am getting at is... certain signs do not mix. At. All. And then of course there is the opposite side, age differences. It took me a bit to get out of a thinking that only someone younger than me I should date. But I ended up going out with and being in a relationship with someone older than me. Just there should be morale limits of course. Limits like going out with people only 2-3 years younger and 2-3 years older than you. Anything else could either be seen as cradle robbing or going out with a cougar. Yeah i know... I am crazy for saying such things. But who would let their 18 year old daughter date a 27 year old guy? I doubt any parents would let their kid do such a thing.
On the flip side who as parents who destroy a relationship when their daughter is going out with a guy only 2 years younger? see what I am getting at.

I feel like just posting what type of person I am looking for here, since you never know right?


All I would like to meet is a gal born in 1988, 1990, 1991, 1993 or 1994 (referencing Eastern Astrology Compatibility). An Earth (Taurus, Virgo, Capricorn) or Water Sign (Pisces, Cancer, Scorpio). Someone who is creative/artistic, intellectual  plans ahead/sets goals, adventurous, athletic and an activist for our environment. Someone who is genuine and wanting to help others by giving back to the community. Someone who is committed and in it for the long run.
I know it sounds like a lot, but I know there must be someone somewhere out there.
I am a Taurus, born in the year of the Horse and if you would like to know more about me, feel free to message.

Day 13 Questing

One Word... Skyrim. I did nothing else. I am only posting this so people aren't wondering what I did today.

By playing the game the whole weekend, I didn't get anything done and my novel as stalled.

Day 12 Lazy Day

Well, Yesterday night before the war game I order and began download Skyrim. Since I have been working hard the last few months I basically spend the whole day playing the game.

For those who don't know me when i was in high school I use to play LOTRO during the summer, 16 hours a day, everyday. I had no life and I admit it. I have gone past that point and can live without games. But I do need them some days to get away and out of the world into a virtual one.

Day 11 We Shall Never Forget

Remembrance Day - The Day we morn the loss of all those who gave their life for peace and security for everyone now.
It makes me sad to hear in the news today at vandals defacing a memorial to those. Like don't you have something better to do?
Regardless where you are in the world, regardless what culture you are, and regardless what you believe in; everyone should take time of the day to remember. But more and more today young people around my age just seem to not care anymore. So what happened in the past... how does this affect us now? I swear some days I wish people wouldn't be so damn ignorant. The world seems to be in a continuous state pain and misery, with a very short period of peace. That is... if we ever had any peace.
What bothers me is how our world deals with those who have committed war crimes. Sure we punish those who we fought against but what about the criminals at home? After taking my history course during the summer, I was disturb to find out that those behind the nuclear bombing of Japan got away with murder. Murder of over 250,000 people.

Anyways, it is hard to change the world; but the world is creating its own change so either go with the flow or get knocked off the edge.

Also today marks the Official Launch of Skyrim.

Day 10 Half n' Half

Yay! Thursday! The way I planned out college schedule this year is so perfect since I only go four days a week to class and a three day long weekend. Anyways today wasn't all that interesting, I had a lecture in the morning and went home for lunch. But since i was working so- so hard this week I passed on my second class. I don't have to worry too much about my physics class, since this is my second time around and I have all my notes from the year when I took it.

I just spend the rest of the day at a friends counting down for the launch of Elder Scroll V: Skyrim. And then watching him play the game until midnight.

So yeah not much done, not much achieve but everyone needs some R n R?

Day 9 Field Trip

The last few days I haven't been down on the sailboat because I am busy with other things, mostly college things. Today for my physical geography class we went down to a local stream (creek which was heavily engineered) to do a stream assessment. We had three hours to do, but even that was cutting it for the amount of data we have to collect. The class was divided up into three groups and then each group was assigned (since i did it once before I got priority and picked for my group) a section of the stream. Then the groups had to fill out 4 of the 5 pages of the form. In my group unfortunately there was a lot of confusion of what must be done and about the numbers. We also ended up pulling out a tire, a safety cone and 11 vodka bottles from the creek.

I admit to slacking off after both of my classes today and relaxing instead of doing work. But everyone is aloud to have a break right?

Day 8 Assignments, Application & Novel

What does one do when they have three written things for my application, twelve things to do for my portfolio, two college essays and presentations on that topic (due in Dec) and a report. Not including homework and of course.. exams.
Also as much as i want to add to my novel, I have it an invisible wall of sorts. I am trying to add to my chapters which go into greater deeper of each social issue, by explaining what it is, what is wrong with it and of course what should be done to solve it; possible solution of course.
In some ways I wish i could just clone myself three time overs so I could get everything done overnight. But since that isn't possible.... I think it is worth looking into meditation or something to keep myself calm. Since if I would lose it and let the ball drop I would be in a lot tighter situation than I am in now.
I did manage to add a little bit more to my novel today, which is good of course, but it wasn't much.
I am running out of time to get all this done before i go back to working and going to college at the same time.

So stresssed!

Day 7 Land Locked

It was interesting last night, since I could feel the freighter go by on board the boat. I didn't really get much done on my novel since, well I had to study for a midterm which i wrote on Monday morning. Mind you last night was also one of the calmest nights on the water I have had out the days i have been on board the sailboat. Due to the fact of living on a boat without a shower and hot water I have decided to wake up earlier so i could go home and get ready before heading off to college. By doing this it also gave me more time to study for my midterm which we had 3 hours to write and a lot of questions to answer.
After lunch I was able to add more to my novel and a little bit more after my last class while i was waiting for my club meeting. It is progressing slowly so far. 2840 words when I should be at 10,000 by now. I am trying my damnest to reach the number of words i need to write a day, but since my novel is a non-fiction about real world issues make it a lot more difficult. I understand that and that is one of the reasons why i am writing to improve the world. But inorder to have to possibly published in Jan I need to finish the novel in November and of course all the other things I need to get done for application for UBC.
I am also going to spend the next two days on land (today and tomorrow night) because of my classes since i have a field trip coming up on Wednesday.

Day 6 Manic Midterms and Lack of Time

Today was by far really different since I when i woke up I went from the marina i was staying back home before running a few errands. As for sleeping on the boat it is pretty nice, thought  i wish the boat I was on had a few things... like hot water. But then again this is just my first experience living aboard so you gotta start somewhere and it aint always the way you want it to be. I do find it a lot easier to study on it thought since it is really quiet and i have no distractions. Well, almost no distractions. In order for me to get internet I went to my cell phone provider to get the rocket stick (Rogers for those wondering) and while I was there I upgraded my cellphone from an old Samsung smartphone with Android 1.0 software to a much newer Samsung with 2.2, which is by far a lot faster and less buggy.
I am planning on working on my portfolio stuff later on this week when I have more free time and same goes with the novel during the week. As much as i want to hit the 100k mark, due to my lack of time able to contribute to the novel I will have to drop the bar to the contest level of 50k. Still doable, I just need more time.

Day 5 Wind and Waves

Well, I did it. I moved onto a sailboat today and am going to be spending the rest of the month of November on it. The winds were about 10 knots and of course the currents pushed the boat away from the dock creating a 1 foot (30cm) gap from the boat and the finger dock. So you had to be careful getting on and leaving making sure you or you're belongings won't end up in the drink. I also messed up earlier in the day and accidentally broke the space heater so I had to pay to replace it; bound to happen since it was my first time on the sailboat. I just need to get use to having no water pressure, no hot water (unless i boil it on the propane stove) and no shower. So thinking about it i am probably going to wake up earlier so I can come back home and get ready before heading off to college. I do have a midterm tomorrow too, so we will see how living on board will help my studies.
As for my assignments and novel, i got some progress just i was tired yesterday and without internet so i was extremely limited. I have sketch paper on the boat, college books and of course lots of novels i would like to read during the time i am on board.
I shall do an update of my word count tomorrow.

Day 4 Overwhelmed

I never thought I would be posting this, but I am seriously overwhelmed! I have a college midterm (second one) on Monday, I am writing (or at least trying to) for NaNoWriMo, getting my application and portfolio done for UBC and getting ready to move aboard a boat tomorrow. I feel so tired and i have so many things to do. Tomorrow I am planning to finish or almost finish my re-cycled nautical chandelier, move aboard and write like a madman until i hit the 15,000 word make. Not to mention study too like a madman for that upcoming exam. I also have three CADD drawings I need to start from scratch and finish this month, sketches and a few models. I wish in a way i could clone myself three times and get all this done a lot sooner.
It bothers me that my mind has gone blank with my non-fiction novel. Since each and everyday counts towards achieving the 50k (in my case 100k) word goal. I really really want to write (kinda why I am able to post here) and get it done but, yeah, i'm lost where to go.


World Goal for today: 13,600
Amount Written: 0
Total Words: 1468
Goal: 100,000

Actually now when i look at it, 15k isn't enough. I need a MINIMUM of 17k to get back on track. *roll eyes*

Day 3 EGB (Emerging Green Builders)

Today was interesting, since in my human geography class we had a debate about the whole Occupy movement, where the class divided up into groups to talk about each side of the movement. I tried to be on the 1% movement (I support the 99% outside the debate) to see if we could voice an opposition to the 99%. It was far from unsuccessful, since it was so hard to find anything supporting the super rich. Really there is so many reasons why the 99% is correct in what they are fighting for. After lunch I managed to add more to my novel, not as much as i like thought. And then for my final class for the week, which was physics it wasn't that interesting but very tiring.
Anyways after dinner I went down to the Emerging Green Builders Victoria branch meeting which was really interesting. We had a guest speaker come from the government to talk about government policies and looking for input about improving their green policies. I also was able to network and chat with other people who were down there (either in the field or in a related field) and got information about Cascadia, LEED certification and more.

As for novel, it is sad... I didn't make much progress. I am hoping to write like 20,000 words on Saturday to get me back on track, but then I need either peace and quiet or a really really good song.

Word Goal for today: 10,200
Amount Written: 511
Total Words: 1,468
Goal: 100,000

Day 2 Delayed

Well, today I was planning to move on-board as I said in my previous entry. But due to the weather, rain and lots of it, I had to postpone to this weekend. However i don't mind, since it gives me more time to get more prepared and pick up a few minute last things which would be very useful - like a tarp to tie down over the boom.
It was interesting today in class, since we spent most of the class going over what is going to be on our second midterm. It took a long time - 2 hours 30 minutes to cover everything, but I am hoping to use my free time aboard the boat to study like a mad man. Then in my second geography we went downtown to see chinatown and the older parts of town. It was pretty interesting, but ugh, the rain really made that day feel so much worse. I did manage to look into getting some things for one of my portfolio projects and also found out that there is more to it. I need to go to a strictly electrical store to pick up 16 gauge wire but I did get the receptacles and some wood stripping to kinda figure out how my themed chandelier will come together.
As for NaNoWriMo, I wrote a little on the bus ride to meet my classmates downtown but most of it at home before I wrote this entry.

Word Goal for today: 6800 (3400 for each day for those wondering)
Amount Written: 957
Total Words: 957
Goal: 100,000

Day 1 NaNoWriMo

It is strange, I was thinking about what I was going to write about for National Novel Writing Month this year two months before it even started, and now I am having trouble figuring out where to start. Add the fact that now I am a landlubber until I graduate. Which in my opinion sucks, since I love being down near the ocean. I am also going to have more time to work on some parts of my portfolio during this month since as of November 2nd I am boat-sitting for a month, to see what it is like living aboard a boat. I'll be staying on a Cal 28 (I don't know the year, possible 1960-1970s) with the cabin level with the deck. So it only has standing head room through the center of the boat, I have to watch so i don't bump my head.

I was planning on also starting my novel today but could think of how or where to begin. Ironic, I can write about almost anything except the thing I want to write about the most. I guess the fact of having an exam in the afternoon didn't help the fact.

But I did write a guide/outline so I have a rough idea how I want to lay it out. Heh, gosh I am soo busy.
What is NaNoWriMo + Full time college + University Application = Not enough time in a day.

Word Goal for today: 3400
Amount Written: 0
Total Words: 0
Goal: 100,000.

Crap...