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Monday, October 31, 2011

Eleven out of Thirty One

Due to my busy schedule this month I was unable to meet my goal for 31 posts for October. I have been slaving away on assignments and studying for exams which never seem to end. I did however get the materials for my workbench on the 20th of October, and built it over that weekend. As for my projects for my portfolio, it is slowly coming together but I am planning to get most of it done in November. I even have taken that month off work so I can everything done. On top of all that I am taking part in NaNoWriMo, with a goal of 100k words in 30 days and I might even try and get my VHF operators licence. Like that isn't enough I would like to complete all my major projects for geography. I am also planning to take an income tax course to help increase my meagre income next year.

I am also in the process of acquiring a Catalina 30, I shall not say more it is not final yet. But I shall post about it when I get it.
UPDATE: I looked into taking out a loan but due to my low income I am unable to and my parents are not willing to help out on this. So I have got to pass on this opportunity. However I am going to budget and save so when one arises in the future I can possible take advantage of it. 

As The Essentials of Living Aboard Boat says (on page 33) "There are a lot of things that don't grow on trees, such as money. Money does not grow on trees. But boats do.
...Houses grow on trees, meaning that a better will always come along, even if that deal does not exist today. When you that a great deal is passing you by, don't be nervous, because there is another one coming."
(Page 258): "Be patient and thorough when choosing a boat - and remember that boats, good and bad, grow on trees." 
I own the book and I recommend it to all those considering living about a boat.


I was going to write about Holidays tonight, but with having a test tomorrow and my busy schedule I have to cut this one shorter.




Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Local or Import

For those wondering I had a really busy week last week, with a test on Wednesday, exhibition on Saturday and Flyering for a club on Sunday. I also picked up the materials for a workbench which I almost finished building on the weekend.

As many of you know I am looking and searching pretty well everywhere for a sailboat. Due to the current economic crisis in the United States the boat market is flooded and the prices are substantially lower than the similar boats in Canada. But there is a lot (well maybe not that much, but more than just buying a boat locally) paperwork that you must have on hand or have to fill out when you arrive. Mostly to do with going through Customs/Canadian Border Services Agency and Transport Canada. Plus the fact you'll have to pay a duty and taxes for bringing it here.

Compared to buying a local boat at a marginally higher, in the end the costs come very close or no difference which means zero savings. But also there are less things to go wrong since you don't have to worry about all that paperwork and re-licencing.

The final thing is... do I aim to get a sailboat now, with the 12% HST still in effect or do I wait till Jan 1st 2012 to get it with only 5% GST. Its a tough call, since boats come and go on the market and it is hard to find the right one at the right place. And about the project boat, well I am going to look for something at a slightly higher price with less work needed to fix it up.


Monday, October 17, 2011

New, Used or Abused

No, I am not referring to people for those wondering. Rather I am taking about different conditions you can buy or acquire boats. It has also been almost a week since i updated you all on my status. Which can simply be summed up... no progress. BUT BUT, before you think i am just a big talker i am planning tonight once i get everything done today to work until midnight on my portfolio.
Anyways, back to the topic at hand....
On Sunday I online when was online, surfing the net. I stopped one of the blogs (HoboSailor:HoboSailor | Facebook) i follow on their facebook page only to find at the very bottom, their first post a documentary called: Hold Fast (http://vimeo.com/15351476). It is a 1:15:45 long documentary about a group of four people finding, fixing up an old fiberglass yacht and sailing it in the Caribbean. I shall not say anymore for those interested in watching it.
Watching that documentary got me thinking about other ways of acquiring or buying a boat. And also brought up the topic of Derelict boats again for which, i have searched in the past. So instead of spending say... 20,000, 50,000 or even 100,000 on a used boat; I could find a derelicts or abandoned boat and fix her up. Of course that would mean getting her very cheap or better free. Just the thing is, once i've got the boat i have to get her hauled out and trailered to my parents house where i can work on her. Easier said that done, since i only know of two haul out locations on Vancouver Island. However, when you consider everything, even if it costs 4,000-6,000 to repair and fix the boat; I still save a lot of money. Not to mention if I can get it really cheap, well, it would be hard to sell any boat these days with the market flooded with so many.

I have hoping to make my search easier posted ads on UsedVictoria and Sailnet to get the word out that I am looking for such a thing. But since I am also busy with my studies i doubt i'll be able to do anything to that boat (if I happen to find one before the end of October) until mid December.

No matter where you go in the world you are going to encounter places were derelict abandoned boats have come to rest. Majestic vessels of the sea, left to degrade and fade away.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Moving On, Moving Along

Most of us have had experienced a relationship break up in one way or another, some better than others. The feeling of having your heart think and everything you thought you knew about your relationship to vanish and disappear into thin air. And the pain of knowing that all what once was is no more. Those who haven't experienced it, should not worry about it, since it will only work out for the best even though it may feel quite the opposite. Breakups should be seen more of a blessing in disguise, since they show us how bad some relationships can be and to learn from such an experience.

Yet what I don't understand is why, in our culture we must make other people feel pain over out of our expense. It also raises the question why some relationships start when, astrology speaking, they would never, ever work out. Sadly though most of those fall apart leaving one person who was in the relationship emotionally scarred. 
Our culture seems to influence everyone is the 'choice' of finding the 'right' life partner. The choice itself is the problem, since for us to find someone who clicks with us we need to get to them really well. However the term 'right' is incorrect, since there can never be a singular person to fit that assumption. It would be better off to look at it as there are multiple 'right' partners, and there are even more almost right people out there. Just then the problem is distinguishing the person you have almost everything in common with from another person you have very little in common. That is where i wish there was a better system in this world to meet people... anyways this is off topic.

Moving on from a harsh break up/divorce or any other similar situation it is hard. It would be quick it takes time, but time can only heal the wounds when enough time has passed. The toughest part of moving on is, when you have those day and you remember and recall memories of the past you wish you could forget for several years. Another thing which would be really important to have would be someone, even a counsellor, to talk to about what you went through. I am on the fence though of going to one since of my past and having overcoming depression only 4 years ago. I know I am strong enough to keep my head about the water, but i am worried that this failed relationship is slowly dragging me down.

Moving along with life, is just as hard as moving on. Since all those things you use to do and all the time you would put aside for your previous relationship now is free again. Trying to keep yourself busy is easy or hard depending on the person, and the busier you are the better off you'll be. 

All I would like to do is start another relationship, but meeting the right person is the hardest part....

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Acquaintances & Friends

I have failed my challenge to myself on the first week of my blog, sorry all. I have too many things, assignments, and projects to get done in such a short amount of time it was bound that something was gonna slip. So my new goal to keep everyone up to date is to post mostly during the week and keep to a minimum of 30-31 posts a month.

Friendship is one of those thing none of us could do without, we need social contact. But in the world today there are so many ways, orders and hierarchies of who we view better than other friends. Its like the value of amity has gone from worth a lot to priceless, since today we can literally dump someone with a click of a button on facebook. So where does this leave us? We could meet someone on Monday, get to know them on Tuesday, hang out on Wednesday, Argue with them on Thursday and Dump them of Friday. Not that, that would ever happen in real live in such short time.

Acquaintances, Friends, Close Friends, True Friends, Best Friends the list goes on and on about how we define who is trusted more than others. The whole idea of organizing people into categorizes isn't new at all, and has been used in the past (i.e. where race comes from in our culture) to define who is superior to those below. However in the case of friendship, it more goes along the lines of Trust (which i shall go into more detail in a later post) and how well we get along with them. The better we get along, the more we trust and the better friends the two people become (as everyone knows). So organizing and ordering has some good things about it, but what about the people we come across who seem nice at first then stab us in our backs?
They are (hopefully) far and few between, since we would learn (hopefully) after running into the first person like that to avoid them until they realize how much they are hurting others. But chances are, those type of people have slipped through our judgment and got into our circles only to wreak havoc before getting kicked out. I would have to say that at least most of the time we cannot avoid these situation because we do not know the person's personality until we become friends with them. So sadly this is unavoidable and bound to happen on numerous occurrences.

On the other extreme... we can come across people we get along with for a bit before it goes sour and we end up blocking them trying to avoid them until a later time. But what does blocking achieve? If the person has crossed you and then blocked you, making it impossible to make up, doesn't that mean it would only get a hell of a lot worse when they try and get back into contact in the future? Most likely, that is if they see it. Any angry, rage, or revenge directed towards a former friends followed by stonewalling is like throwing fuel onto the fire hoping it will burn itself out. It WON'T! It will only grow and burn hotter and stronger, so when you do try and make amends it would be like dealing with an inferno instead of a small fire. But then again everyone is entitled to their own decisions and who they choose to be their friends.

Friendship is just one of those things we all take for granted. Without it we would be lonely and depressed. But in order to have friends you must treat your friends like you want to be treated. 'Cause what you put out in our world is guaranteed to come back to you.

Thursday, October 6, 2011

Manifest Destiny

Stepping back a day to when i had the midterm, after that class in my other geography in the afternoon we watched two videos. One on Batam in Indonesia and the other one on 'getting rich' about China's economy. After that class i had some errands to run to get art supplies, sailing gear (PFD), and hobby supplies... which took me almost 2 hours downtown going between each shop. To make the whole experience more enjoyable it was raining and most of shops were closing around the time i down town so time was very limited. At one point I had to cover seven blocks, but if i would walk i would have to wait at every single intersection for the light to change. I did at one point run to cover two and a half blocks which did make a difference since the art supply store i was heading to was going to close in about an hour. I got most of what i needed when i was down there, but the stuff i couldn't get was because either the store was closed, or what i was planning on getting was out of stock. 
Anyways....

Manifest Destiny, as in creating your own destiny as you go along through life is a term most of us have heard of at one point. But how far from the truth is it? If we consider this we also inadvertently consider the questions attributed to free will and its debate. Now if we were to consider the other side of the spectrum, Determinism and Fatalism (that our futures have all been decided already by a higher power and we have zero choice in our actions). Where now does this put us? Us being the world, is in stalemate unsure which is the correct way to perceive the future while the opposing side argues the exact same thing. So now where? Now what? Its not like we are the preverbal fork in the road with only two options, since there are varying degrees of free will each can argue. So that turns a simple black and white spectrum into a rainbow of colourful decisions. Is there only one correct route? How many of them add together to make up ones future? 

If you are wondering about my perspective on this; I use to be a strong determinist but i have swung more towards the middle. The way I see the answer to the question about free will is simply (maybe not that simple) that our future is determined but within that determined future we have thousands of options which then determines our life's path. 

To what point does one stop questioning the world around them and their future on the basis of free will? That becomes a question for each and everyone to answer, since their is no solid answer about it. 
Moving along...

The reason why I am bringing this up, is because even the most focused individual will sidetrack. As for myself I still see my first priority is to become an Architect but I have ventured more than several times off course considering other interests. What those may be, range and are different from one another. I have considered Horticulture, Marine Architecture, Carpentry and the odd one Truck Diver. But every time i remind myself why i am wanting to go this route (of course Marine Architecture can be incorporated since it is related). I am doing this because I love the creativity of the design process, the rewarding process of seeing your design come to life and history/biographies of famous architects. The income itself is simply the icing on the cake, since it merely represents the amount of work that you've done you are paid for.  Similar to most jobs... but then how many jobs may ask you to work a seven day week? 

Another part of the dream is considering where i am going to live. The options aren't really limited but once you add the cost of rent then it becomes very limited. Hence why I am considering living on a sailboat. It may sound really romantic to lots but there is a lot more to consider than the wind and waves. In order for me to really enjoy the experience i am challenging myself on top of everything else (closer to the end of the year) to get my RYA Dayskipper and VHF operators licence before the new year. Even if would fall short and only get the VHF, I do have my PCOC so technically I could still move the boat once i find one. 

One of my biggest reasons for choosing to live on a boat is because of the freedom it allows to its owner. Even if the world would go topsy turvy, i could change my lifestyle from living docked to on the hook. Just hopefully everything will improve before it gets any worse. But honesty looking at the current world issues... it is more likely to go the other way, getting a lot worse before it gets better. Which is sad is say.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Part II - Trivial Love

I realized this morning that i forgot a few other things attributed to relationships. One being cheating and the other the issue about when to have kids. As they are not inherently connected to love and moreover link to lust, these thou separate should still be consider as part of the whole larger topic.

So consider yourself the type who cheats on others... what would that be like and how would that feel?
The way it seems to play out again and again regardless whether the guy or girl does it is because there is some flaw in the relationship (that the person who is going to cheat) does not understand or does not know how to resolve. The other case is, the relationship began out of lust and was purely out of desperation. In the second case it is more likely to end in with cheating when the other person grows tired of their lover. I for one have only been cheated on so i do not understand why people do it in the first place, so all of this is speculation. My guess is the person would feel good at first but eventually their feelings will return for the person they cheated on and well, it could ultimately end with them ending their current relationship because they are unsure of their feelings.

Now consider yourself the person who gets cheated on... how would that feel like?
Imagine everything is fine and then in one day your world is turn upside down and the person you once love now doesn't want to be with you anymore. It is a heart wrenching experience and extremely painful to go through for anyone. You are left questioning yourself; why did this happen? why did it end? why did i deserve this? Depending how many people cared about your relationship and heard about it ending some of them will stem in and help you get back onto your feet. As for the person who ended it, they are probably still feeling invincible and invulnerable, thinking they are right about everything they did. Don't dwell on the past, especially if you are trying to get on with your life. Just remember to give yourself time to heal and time to recover from this. Being cheated on is one of those things that is sometimes inevitable but good things can come out of it.
Moving on, from a harsh event will only make you stronger. Also learn from such an experience and in my opinion be a bit more picky your start a relationship with.

As for kids depending where you are in the world and the culture, it might be normal to have kids when you are young. But in most of parts of the world it is trending to having kids later and closer to when the couple is in their early to mid 30s. Some cultures require marriage too before having kids. And of course the cost of raising them and giving them a life requires a lot of time and money.

For those wondering about me, I am still in recovering from having my heart ripped out from my last relationship. I feel emotionally scarred from the experience because of how sudden and rude it ended, but hope to eventually meet the right girl. But that is easier said than done when there is 7 billion people in this world.

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Trivial Love

I said was gonna write a post with this heading and here it is, same day 'cause i just want to vent about the topic. I hope you like long winded because I plan on giving myself an hour to write this before i call it a night.

Love, as most, well everyone sees it as a 'connection' between two people. But is there really such a thing? Yes Culturally and No biologically. Love (the word) can be seen as a cultural creation to express the feeling we have towards someone we want to mate with. Each cultural and/or religion has adapted it to fit their beliefs and for this reason the line has became extremely blurred. Biologically speaking, we are all hard wired to get down and dirty.

So now the question is... has love done anything good for our society? For that you would have to define good. Love is like the son or daughter of lust and jealousy. You cannot have one without the others, since it is inherent that everyone is jealous in one way or another. Like when you see a hotter nicer looking guy or girl in the mall and you question yourself about your current relationship (not saying that everyone or anyone does that). Lust on the other hand is our hormones going on overdrive and pushing us to find someone to mate with.
Just the thing is, our society has put social barriers to control people in their pursuit of lust, mostly to stop people from assaulting people and  ruining other people's lives. Which is very good to have, yet... then how come we still hear about these things in the news? Its sad to see or hear about people getting raped and then those who commit such an idiotic crime to go to jail. Would sterilization of those who apparently can't respect the rights of others be too far? Probably to most people and Amnesty since it goes against human rights.
Anyways....

Moving on to relationships...
More and more these days people are meeting online plus the fact people are living longer... should this not then mean more happy relationships? Apparently quite the opposite. People are breaking up here and there and frickin' everywhere! Seriously. It does not matter if you are in the western world or developing nations or those just starting to development (maybe not as much). People get together and break up... get together and break up. You get the idea. What has happened to Commitment?  Its like in our digital world commitment has disappeared and has almost become non-existent.  People get together hoping they've met the one only to end up with their heart on floor and their lover taking an axe to it. There are some people however who do meet when they are young and marry for live, which i would definitely call them really lucky. And then there are others who go from relationship to relationship, confused, unsure, and testing the water per say.
We could even drag astrology in here for how it defines everyone and the sign compatibility. I've gotta say it is pretty damn close. Some signs should avoid each other while others who are suppose to be should definitely get together. Surprisingly there are a lot of miss-matched marriages in our world where signs that should never be together, get together and have kids. Now explain to me this, how does a miss-matched judge a good boyfriend or girlfriend when they them self are incompatible? Sadly it is simple... screw over their kids lives.

 Pause for a second... think about the priorities when you are in a relationship. What should come first? First should always be love no doubt about it. IF if anything else supersedes it, then ask yourself, is the relationship i am in now really the one i want to be in 15 years from now? Really does anyone want to be in a relationship when MONEY is the number one priority. Yeah sure it is important, but if it is more important than love, then your relationship is a lie 'cause there is NO love.

Also how come with relationship these days very very few people know who to end it correctly. It seems to be when the shit hits the fan IT HITS THE FAN! The worst ways of breaking a relationship begins by stonewalling your lover and refusing to speak to them. Followed by a text or IM or social media message destroying what love was left. The stupidity of going this route is that you have bombed and emotionally scarred your former lover and the chance of there being friendship at the end of this is zero. All because they will probably feel so hurt they will have to go to their friends and possibly yours for help or advice. Seriously our culture needs to work on how to end things a lot more respectfully.

But if you have made it this far and are planning to get married well, there still a bit more to go. Marriage these days, in some countries is going down all because people don't see it necessary. They would rather be common law instead. The interesting thing is there are so many different types of ceremonies out there for each religion and of course for those people who would rather have their own unique ceremony. So why would someone pass up the opportunity of having a good time with the person they love and make it official? I'll let you think about that...

The few things in this world I wish could change are... the Divorce rate cause it is way too high. I would like to see if we could come up with a free more refined way for people to meet. Also there should be better support networks in for people in relationships regardless if they are long distance or same town. There should be more education about relationships and how to handle getting out of them if need be. And finally people should respect everyone else regardless where they are in the world more.

We gotta Let Love In and throw Hate into the Bin.

Testing...Testing...Testing...

The coming next three weeks i have midterms on each of those weeks. Which means i have to pause everything i am doing the day/night before to study. So I can scratch out three days this month to work on my admission requirements. But that shouldn't be too big of a deal, since I can use the following days after the tests to work on assignments from college and of course admission requirements. The only catch is, i might be working on those nights.

I have kinda (emphasis on Kinda) started looking for a 30 foot yacht to live on even though I do not know what it is like. The good news is that there are about 70 listings near or not to far from where i am. But the price range is quite considerable. I am also not planning on buying one this year because the HST (Harmonized Sales Tax) still applies, but as of January 1st 2012 we'll back to GST (goods and services) and PST (provincal sales tax). That would mean on such a purchase there is a good chance i will save several hundred dollars.

I was thinking on the way home of two other post titles... Trivial Love, and one more i am unable to remember at the moment. I plan to hopefully write about those in my upcoming blog entries. I also don't want to overlap anything i plan on writing in my novel, since then it would take the originality out of the novel. 

Fall also is finally here on the west coast... it is cold and windy, but luckily no rain yet.

I am unsure what i'll post tomorrow since i'll most likely be writing my post after my midterm. we'll see, maybe something will inspire me.

Monday, October 3, 2011

Day by Day

So now, waiting in between classes i figured it would be a good time to add a short entry to my blog. For those wondering how much I am trying to accomplish and how much time i have allocated for all my projects i think now would be a good time to mention it.

Currently I am going to college four days a week 10:30am till 4:30pm, taking four courses. Three geography's and one physics. I am also working three days a week (Thursday till Saturday). I have joined also a local sailing club which i am hoping to go sailing every Sunday and as of the new year i am going to re-join the local archery club so I can practice on their ranges come the new year. I am also part of a college club too which meets every two weeks.

What I have to do at the moment is for the most part the application for my program. Which is; a questionnaire, biographical statement (resume), statement of interest, two academic references and a max 18-page portfolio of my creative work. Have i started any of this? Not yet. How much time have i given myself? Only till the end of October. Why so little time? Because in November I have other plans I wanna do that will take up most of my time.

As of November I am going to be taking part in NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) which is a 30 day competition to write 50,000 words/175 pages. I am challenging myself to do double that in the same time... 100,000 words in 30 days. Crazy? Hell no! I just have a novel idea I want to get done so i can edit it in December and possibly publish in the new year. I also at the moment trying to also find someone in town who would let me boat sit for a month. Boat sit similar to house sitting except for the fact it'll be a sailboat and there is limited living space. Limited if you compare to a house, they are fairly roomy.
If i like the experience I am definitely going to go forward and buy myself a 30 foot (10 meter) sailboat to live on while I am in Vancouver. I have already finished a book on living aboard a boat that helped inform me about this decision.

Sunday, October 2, 2011

The Beginning & Procastination

Today is the beginning towards a brighter future,
Towards a journey down the road less traveled,
All in hope to achieve what I aspire,

Challenges laying everywhere,
heartache and despair,
But that was then and this is now,
moving on from the sorrow,
down the road to a brighter tomorrow.


I haven't written any poetry since 2009, which is ironic since i seem to be able to write more when my mind is weighed down with many things. This year to say the least has been really shitty. It started out great but the shit hit the fan and destroyed the house in the summer. So I've been slowly rebuilding... and recovering from all that. Mainy of my friends say I deserve better, but after what i went through well, they couldn't be more correct. And i've gotta agree with one of my moms friends who gave me some really good wisdom. I am just gonna sum it up... Young and Dumb and Full of Cum. Simply put don't rush to settle down 'cause the next thing you know you'll be signing will be the divorce papers.

Anyways, my live simply hasn't been easy. I feel some days like world are against me. But that could just be an over exaggeration. Since I have a lot of things I am doing plus the fact that I know so much about how the world works (Geography and Sociology courses I have/am taking in college) makes it kinda... interesting.

My idea of this blog is that it will be a place for me to write what is on my mind and a place to talk about becoming and architect while changing my lifestyle from being a land lubber to possibly a sailor. Sailor 'cause I would be living on a sailboat.

Like the title stated, I have other things I must get done but I am writing this instead. I am going to challenge myself on top of everything else I am doing to write once everyday here.